Ooh, goosebumps. x_X Wonder what that was for?

Urgh. I'm logging off now. Gonna print the last couple pages of my story, then head for my bedroom and see what hatches there. Must not forget to wrap Neil's second birthday present. Yes, I bought you another one; when I saw it, I knew I just had to get it for you.

I must also remind myself to start working on the Secret Santas project for the Super Friends. D'oh. Hopefully, it won't be like last year, where everyone knew who had whom. -_-#

Well, here is the new layout. It's not glorious, but at least it works. I've definitely cut back on some of my linking vices, as you can see, and although I do regret having cut so many blogs out of my life, I can honestly say that I will think of the people who live behind the web page.

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In other news, I'm sick. Ha. But I bought a lot of nifty things when I went to the mall yesterday, mostly anime stuff. I really like Saiyuki. Not only is the anime hilarious, but the graphics are crisp and the special effects in the fight scenes are rather cool. I definitely recommend it to anyone who's curious.

There's too much crap going on between the Super Friends, and I'm tired of it. This is our last year, guys; I promise to try and make the most of it, as long as you guys do the same, all right?

winamp: 21st Century Digital Boy by Bad Religion

*coughcough* Just your friendly reminder that Christmas approaches.

And for convenience, here's the wishlist, where all you have to do is pay. ^_^

Heh. I find it hilarious that people only discuss issues on their acceptable level of comfort, but won't if it's uncomfortable for them, yet may be on someone else's level of comfort.

Which is confusing, but I'm sure you know what I mean.

You can't see it now, but I'm dancing. Dancing in my mind. Why? Because I'm freezing, I'm choking, I'm pulling my hair out.

So I gotta dance. Even if it's pretend.

~_~ Well, this is turning into quite a shindig. At first, 'twas only Gen-chan and I of the Super Friends who had blogs, now it seems like all the other Super Friends have them too. Well, at last we can say to each other online all the things we don't want to say in real life.

Chris, I did not throw a fit and I resent that you claim I did. I keep things bottled up for exactly the reason Neil states: drama and the fact that I drive my friends away. Apparently no one wants to talk to me anymore because of all the emotions I let out.

I'm sorry for being such a feeling person. I feel pain too easily, I empathize too well, and I suffer for others when I shouldn't. But at the same time, I'm becoming increasingly depressed, because high school and the ever looming college issues are getting to me. What am I going to do with my life? People say, "Oh, you're smart, you'll do fine." No, that's not always true. Being smart does not equate being successful. I can memorize things, I can recite facts, but I'm not a problem solver like others, I'm not really good at anything.

And if you say I'm good at writing, I'll kill you. If I were any good at writing, I'm pretty sure some of the stuff I submitted might have gotten published or at least attracted some attention. And even when I give my story to others to read, they never read it anyway, so I feel like I'm a bad author at that, not even being able to interest people enough to get them to start my story.

I guess what I'm trying to say is I'm a pretty lousy friend. But at least I have the nerve to admit it.

Oh yeah, I've got a lot of editing to do. Mostly getting rid of blogs I don't read anymore, although I did visit some people, only to find I was nothing more than a fragmet of a bit (or a byte) on their computers' memories. Or something. I don't know the technicalities very well, but I do know that I'm forgotten. But I suppose it's my fault for ending up like this. Meh. I still feel bad. I miss you all already. Please, keep me in the back of your mind, but don't forget me. I don't want to die and have the world be as if I never existed. x_X

As for the Irene situation, which has the Super Friends in, more or less, an uproar, I don't really care. She strikes me as a person who strives for attention, and since I am exactly the same way, who am I to speak up about that? Yes, she comes across as a little "stuck-up" or "goody-goody," especially when talking to Slater, but did you ever stop to consider she's just trying to fit in? Imagine, she must feel out of place and unwanted as it is, without people secretly hating her.

At any rate, I'm perfectly fine with her supposed "bragging" about her SAT scores, because I enjoy talking about my two 4's, and there's nothing really wrong with that. When we do good, we want to talk about it and be recognized for our achievements. Everyone does it, and don't even tell me that we don't.

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*whew*

In other news, I'm extremely unhappy and confused right now. You know when a person as a secret and they say they need to think about the outcomes of asking/telling you it, but you kind of already know what it's going to be, yet feign ignorance? Yeah, I have that kind of problem. It's a problem I have with a coworker at the commissary. At least he won't be there today. Oy. x_X I wish I were God, and I had a Smite key on my celestial keyboard. I'd smite all day long.

Some days I feel really alone. Like... I don't even have any friends. Which feels true most of the time. Do any of them really care? I mean, they can ask, and I can ask about them, but I guess what I really want is a best friend. Or a friendship that just feels mutual. Sometimes I just want to lie down and cover my face, and never look on the world again.

Oh, yes, in gaming news, I'm going to pick up Mario Kart: Double Dash tomorrow, as I won't have any time today to go to the mall and get my reserved copy. But the funny thing is, they didn't call me to remind me. There were some weird complications when I reserved the game, because I had stopped by to pick up another game I reserved (Soul Calibur II), and the guy said I could just move my $5 down payment from SCII to MK:DD, then pay the full price for SCII (rather than the original price minus five dollars). He printed up the receipt and made out a little "reserve" note, but I didn't get the call, and they always call me to remind me about my reserved games. Hmmm... We'll see.

And I hope there's a 48 hour notice on pick-ups, because he didn't check the boxes marked 24 hr or 48 hr. So I'm hoping I can just go in tomorrow and get it. We'll see.

Ouch. x_X I ache all over. We just finished playing Capture the Flag in JROTC. Uh, yeah, not only diod I sustain numerous falls, rugburns, and bruises, but I also got elbowed in my neck and had to sit out for the last five minutes.

Not fun.

But I did score two points for our team. We lost, though. x_X

It still hurts... I'm gonna have one helluva bruise. Heh. Ow.

Fear not, I am plotting a new layout soon, so just be patient with me while I switch servers and stuff like that. x_X

Um, not much to report, other than I'm doing lots of homework and have started playing Golden Sun for GBA. Also applied for applications for college. Yup, looking at UW, Seattle AI, and UNLV.

Honor your veterans, j0.

winamp: Hey Jude by the Beatles