Wednesday, February 28, 2001

Hey, you know what? I'm going to make a stencil for Gen-chan. ^___^
That should stop us having to e-mail ZIP packages back and forth.
You know what? JOIN ZERUEL'S CLIQUE! STOP THE MADNESS
OF THE PUBERTY BOY THAT IS SQUALL! MUAH! MUAH HA!
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!

Hee. Free endorsement. XD I feel important now.

I'm just waitin' for Gen-chan to send back the stuff I sent. The Vash skin
is ready to go aside from the bits of missing pieces. ^__^
...and what really sucks is that we still have school tomorrow despite
the fact that the whole of Western Washington is in a state of emergency.
I mean, the frickin' government building isn't even safe anymore. O_O;;;
GEEZ!

Now it's time to wait for The Big One. We're sitting on a time bomb. It's
only a matter of when, not if. *sighs* This sucks. Now my paranoia levels
have shot up straight past "They're watching me" to "WE'RE ALL GONNA
DIE! AAAHHHH!" >< Cheese nuggets and fie on Mother Nature. >:P

Hee, this kinda fun. Shivering spasmodically while twitching in the eyelid.
Heeeee... My mom thinks I'm winking. o_O; Oi.

Well, I suppose there's one good advantage to being in an earthquake; now
I can say I've actually been in a natural disaster. Heh. The only one I've
been in. XD Thanks for the concern, Wingy, sakura-san, and Ragabash-san;
much appreciated. I hope the worst is over. >.>;; Good luck on your test, sakura-san,
and Wingy, I'm gonna get you at the Warning Game. XD We should do this more
often, but AIM only allows so many warnings per session. v__v

Jennifer in SoCal, if you read this, we're all okay! *jumps around and waves
her arms* I'll have my mom call your mom as soon as I get off!

...I wonder if we'll have an earthquake tomorrow.

Currently Playing: "I Will Survive" by Gloria Gaynor
*big grin* Today was another friendly reminder to humans that
we and our accomplishments mean absolutely DICK in the face
of Mother Nature. I am so scared. I am. I shouldn't be, and you
can call me a coward for being scared, but after nightmares of my
own death a couple nights back and then this earthquake, I am all
but pissing in my own pants. Oh geez. Oh shit. I am scared. Please.
No aftershocks. Please.
EARTHQUAKE! O_O

6.8, 30 miles under. Oh my Lord! >< It hit Olympia and Seattle so
frickin' hard, but Tacoma was pretty all right. *wipes forehead* We
were just starting gym in fourth period, and then WHOA! The floor
was a'shakin' and the earth was a'quakin'! I was scared witless and
also immensely exhilirated! It was like being on the Victoria Clipper
again in 7th grade! O_O;;;;

WHEW! I'm so glad that no one around here got hurt. A lot of schools
were cancelled for the rest of the day, but Mt. Tahoma just right on.
The lights flickered but our school was built sound. Plus it's not
two stories, so we didn't get hit that hard. But still...!

6.8!!!! O_O *falls over dead* If it was higher up than 30 miles.... *silence*
I might not be here. It could have been MUCH worse if that happened.
Much worse...

Oy vey. All this excitement has got my headache going again. >< Please
don't let there be any aftershocks. All of Western Washington is in a state
of emergency. Pray for those poor people in Olympia and Seattle. The damage
is estimated in the billions. x___x

Currently Playing: "It Wasn't Me" by Shaggy

Tuesday, February 27, 2001

Don't ask me silly questions, I won't play silly games. o_o;; I have no
idea what this is about, but it's probably true. Thanks to Amber for telling
me about this.
Ugh. Had Super Tramp stuck in my head all day. Don't know the
name of the song, but it goes like this:

Take a look at my girlfriend
She's the only one I got
Not much of a girlfriend
I never seem to get a lot


Anyway, there seems to be some little hint kicking me in my face, but
hey, not my problem anymore. Know the name? E-mail me.

Today I was royally pissed and angry, but calmed off around lunch, then
got pissed again. Mr. Williams called me an "almost genius."

...

NO! NO! NO! I think not, sir, better look elsewhere. So he only called me
an ALMOST genius... Still, that's far more compliment than I deserve for
being an exceptionally above average student in his class. :B I find his
teaching easy to follow. *shrugs*

I don't know, but I know I'm not smart. Quick in the old thinker, yes, but
not smart. Longterm memory's good, I don't seem to choke on tests, and
I never studied for a test, not even a Unit test. All I do is make up my cheatsheet
or 3 x 5 notecard and take the test. :B I don't understand it, but I'm not
smart. I don't consider myself smart.

Oy vey. I'm tired. I haven't been sleeping well a'tall. In fact, the only reason why
I dropped off so quick last night (around 9:30 PM) was because I was tired
from the night before's sleep, which was short and plagued with bad, distorted
images of my own death. *big grin* I still feel like crap. *bigger grin* It took every
ounce of willpower to get out of bed. My eyes felt like someone rubbed them hard
with sandpaper. >_>;; I don't think I've been sleeping well or falling asleep quickly
since I entered middle school, and I'm in high school now. o_o;; It's always been
late nighters or bad sleeps. Meh. The majority of my dreams are lucid, although weird,
and that makes me feel kinda outta place, because lucid dreams signify good sleep
(or so I read), and that just ain't happening with me. o_O;; I dunno. Maybe I'll get it
checked out if I go to the doctor to get my thyroids(sp??) checked. Amber says my
bad moods might be a result of something wrong in my throat because her sister was
the same way as I am now. Hum.

Ooh. Maybe yesterday's post that never got posted will be posted today. o_O;; For
some reason yesterday's post didn't show up on my actual blogger, yet I didn't
lose it. Interesting.

Currently Playing: "Lemon Tree" by Fool's Garden
(There's an interesting story about this song and how I got it. And all because of
the fact of mislabeled songs. I'll blog it later, when I'm properly caffeinated.)

Monday, February 26, 2001

OH MY GOD, WHAT A FUCKING BITCH OF A DAY! ><;;;

Today sucked very much. Very very much. First of all, it all started
around 2:00 AM, when I simply could not fall asleep. I begged, I pleaded,
I practically sobbed for sleep, the precious commodity in my life, but I
was tired yet not in the least bit sleepy, and those two can sometimes
be worlds apart. X_____X

Then, after a hellish four hours, I spent first period feeling like a bit player in
someone else's nightmare, and it just wouldn't end there. In third period I
discovered that one of my earrings was missing... AGAIN. This time I didn't
find it. I'm not so vain that I wear huge-ass frickin' hoops or stuff like that, or
someone else would've noticed, but I wear the same small gold studs that
came with my piercing. This is the third time I've gotten my ears pierced and
the fifth time I lost an earring. This sucks. And furthermore, I had also earlier
lost an earring from a set my mom had given me on my birthday, and they were
actual REAL emeralds, so that really rattled me. She still doesn't know and
doesn't suspect that I'm not even wearing them anymore. Whew.

Then in gym I was just so cheesed off that I actually began playing well in
the pickleball tournament, but of course I lost anyway. -____x;;

After that I was just in a bad stormy level five bitchslap mode and I feel like
killing someone. It's been a HORRIBLE Monday, and now I know exactly how
Garfield feels in all those thick, oddly-shaped comic books when Monday
comes around. x____x Yeesh.

Oh, by the way, YVAN EHT NOIJ. :P Here's a hint: *N SUCK.

Immature? Of course. You wouldn't want yer ol' pally Pammy Poo to be
mature. I'm very bitterly tired but not in the least bit sleepy. I think that's
the last time I'll EVER listen to R.E.M. again. I don't care if I'm having an
R.E.M. craving, I'll never listen to them again before bedtime. It's something
in their songs that keep me up. Especially that song, "Electrolite," from New
Adventures in Hi-Fi
. I don't know why. >< Oi. So tired...

It's a struggle keeping me head up. Seriously. In band I could barely hold
my flute up properly.

Jackass, huh Zeruel? I watched that
show a couple of times. Unfortunately, it was the same episode each time, but hey. I
liked it. Even though it was sick ina very perverse way. It was that episode where
at the beginning they had sumo wrestling or something, and at the end they had
that hard-boiled egg eating contest where they kept puking and stuff. Oi >< It's
shit like that what makes me sick. But it's funny as all hell! XD I think my favorite
little "chapter" in that episode was the "Poo Poo Platter" bit in the Asian restaurant.
^^;;;

Oi. Tired. Must go now. Where is everybody on AIM today? o_o Old Man (a.k.a.
maximumnautius), Wingy, and Margot-san aren't on... ;____;

Currently Playing: "Kachou Fugetsu" by Chichiri (Tomokazu Seki)

Sunday, February 25, 2001

BTW, the Ed and Ein skin is done, but I'm withholding it from CC dot
net because I'm lazy and shouldn't have it done by now, remember?
Whoa... went on a motorcycle ride today. Man, I'll tell you, riding on a
motorcycle is an experience everyone should go through. The initial fright
runs out after the first five rides, after that it's almost mandatory, like breathing.

Learned some new stuff today. A gang of motorcycles will stagger the group.
Single file lines are not encouraged. The leader remains on the left side, in the
"left wheel lane." This is where the left wheel of a car would be. After that the
motorcyclists stagger.

A tailcutter is the end of a motorcycle line. A tailgater is that annoying car
that rides up on the ass of the last motorcycle. Very rude.

The last motorcycle in the gang secures the next lane when the leader asks
to change lanes. The last person moves over so that no cars will come in during
the move. Then everyone shifts over. When the leader leaves, everyone switches
sides and the second motorcycle is now the leader.

It's ever so much fun. But some people are poopy when you ride and give you
dirty looks like we're "evil." Nono. Harleys stick to the taverns and pubs, we
Goldwings stick to our restaurants like Godfather's Pizza, The Olive Garden,
and Triple X Burgers. ^_^ The riders are always middle-aged or older, really
nice folk. The guys and gals love to joke around with me, and Mike always
teases me. I love those guys; they're such a nice group of people. It just goes
to show that stereotypes about "bad to the bone" bikers aren't as common as
you think. :P Hah! XDDD I love motorcycles, especially Goldwings, and particularly
Mike's Goldwing. Everytime I see it, I have the urge to run over to it and hug it.
It's such a great looking machine, man. :D

I'm still so cold that my fingers are numb. You never want to ride in the shade
in 45 degree temperature while wearing somewhat thin pants and a small leather
jacket. Thank God for leather gloves too; cuts back on road rash.

I love motorcycles. When I get old enough it would be my main means of
transportation, but it wouldn't always be efficient. So I'll buy an inexpensive car
and then a nice Goldwing. Aw yeah. ^____^

Currently Playing: "Rush" by Depeche Mode

Saturday, February 24, 2001

I'm getting lazy?! O_O


...Agh. Screw you. :P
Uuuuugh.... x____x Last night was spent in copious drooling over the
Exalted and Revered Darren Hayes while listening to "I Want You (Acoustic
Live)" repeatedly over and over again. Granted, his voice is sexy, but dammit,
seven hours of sleep just isn't enough. >< And who cares if I'm lazy? I like
sleep. Sleep is good. Sleep is the forgotten hero and the poor man's medicine.
The blessed rest at the end of the day and my only escape from reality and
bad TV. Ugh.

....I think I'll go and choke on my own vomit now. x_______x I feel so puky sick
and yucky.

Currently Playing: "Misery" by Green Day

Friday, February 23, 2001

Heeeeee... I can picture three hours of squealing and swooning over
Darren Hayes when Amber comes over. XDDDDDD~~~~
*falls to her knees* Oh Wingy, please forgive me! ;______; I'm
so sorry I left abruptly. I was disgruntled, angry, depressed, and uncaffeinated.
I'm so sorry. It's really not your fault. Please forgive me! *throws her hands up*
I beg forgiveness, I really honestly do! I'm so sorry! I missed you badly and I hoped
you didn't take my disappearance as a reaction to last Friday's conversation! ;___;
I miss you! *sniff*

Aw, thanks Zeruel. ^____^ Well, I know I at least have one dedicated reader! :D
MUAHAHAHAHA! >=D My evil plan is working!

I feel so happy today! Two jars of cheese dip, an extra big container of sour cream,
a big bag of Diane's Tortilla Strips, tons of Dr. Pepper, and Tin Roof Sundae Ice Cream!
XDDDDD Amber! I must remind myself to call you and find out when!

Geez, Gen-chan, I told Amber to send you the picture since she has the dogz she
wants us to skin. :P And besides, in 8th grade 9:00 PM used to be my bedtime! XD
Now I can sleep whenever I want, provided I stay in my room after 9:30 PM and I get
up the next morning. And bleck. I'll start working on that Ed and Ein skin. And pink?
It does strike a rather pretty fancy in me, but... pink x___x I see it all the time. It
does look good though. And I'll get around to asking you to help me. ^^;; I have to
ask Amber with we can use that "No Poking!" picture she made. XDDDD

Oi. I'm ever so happy! But I have the strangest feeling something will go wrong. When
you wake up to discover that an entire gallon of milk has gone all... syrupy when you
pour it into your Chex... you just know the day's gonna have more surprises. x____x

And I just finished cleaning the house, and you know what? My idiot brother lost
the case for Toy Story 2. :\ Can you believe that? Ugh! I even searched in his room for
it, and while searching I discovered a lot of bath and beauty products, namely rose.
And all of the substances were pink. o_o Boy, Gen-chan, I tell you what, maybe it's
true about your godbrother being my brother's boyfriend. o_o Kenneth's cool and all...
but... o_O;; I'm a little worried about my brother now.

Whoo boy. Long ramble today. I haven't been on at all until now. That's how busy I've
been getting ready for the Ritual Slumber Party. ^___^ I need a better social life, anyway.
Right? *silence* ...Right...? All right, fine, so I suck at social stuff, but a few good friends
and a few good puppenschnoogles is all anyone ever needs. XD

Currently Playing: "Dancin' with Myself" by Billy Idol

Thursday, February 22, 2001

Hey, y'all, how'd ya like some Udderly Smooth : Udder Cream?
It's a sample pack, and it's not for resale! :D And it's only for external use, so
please keep out of reach of children, and that means me.

Heh, just a packet of udder cream lying in the downstairs bathroom. I won't
question who, what, or why, but I think I'll keep it so that the original owner
will have to ask around for it. *big grin*

Eh... sorry about that. ^^;; I managed to use forty hours of internet time in
about two weeks! :D The Amazing Internet and Caffeine Addict! Watch the
bags grow and grow!

Also just finished watching Gladiator. Now there's a good movie. Only
it had the expected usual predictable romance in it. Bleck. Oh well. :D I liked
that one dude that tasted Maximus' food and pretended there was poison in
it. XD

Whee. It's so good to be back online. You never know how much you miss it
until it's gone. :D Just like caffeine, the military planes flying overhead late at
night, and the sound of I-5 just out my window. I missed those sounds when
they found the meth lab and supposed leaking dynamite near my home. :DD
Isn't life grand?

Don't worry, it'll pass. Hopefully Fox Internet will be more reliable and BETTER
than NetZero. Already I like it. No annoying banner. :D

BTW, Zeruel, I was dead for a while but now I'm not. I think I've found new interest
in The Sims, though. :D I do so love Build Mode.

I'll be getting to work on that Ed and Ein skin, now that I have the parts to do it with.

Currently Playing: "Man Overboard" by blink-182

Saturday, February 17, 2001

From: "Minnie2" Minnie2@ic24.net
To: crispycrunchysano@hotmail.com
CC: njlundes@att.net, americanteenprincess1@hotmail.com,
shampoo470@aol.com, cutebear15@aol.com
Subject: Eating disorders
Date: Mon, 22 Jan 2001 21:21:09 -0000

Hi I am Jai,

I have heard your interested in eating disorders and was wondering if you'd
like to recive a free pro anorexia newsletter? If the answer is no then please
reply and say no.

Thanks for your time Jai


...This is why we don't send e-mails to crispycrunchysano@hotmail.com.

Currently Playing: "Slim Anus (Uncut)" by Insane Clown Posse

Friday, February 16, 2001

This sucks. People don't know anything. Uh gad. Just finished watching
two movies, and I don't care anymore. I'm just sick to death of people, and their
stupid stupidness, and ugh, I hate people. Did I mention that?

First of all, all worker, soldier, etc. ants are FEMALE. That's right, they're
all WOMEN ants. Stupid ass movie producers think that there are female and
males ants, but there's not. The only males there are is when it's mating season
and the queen starts pumping out males breeders. Yeah, everything I learned
about ants I learned from Maxis, and I'll tell you that ants are female unless
otherwise made. Ugh. People. Idiots. Thank God for that stupid SimAnt handbook.
Oh yeah, A Bug's Life and Antz were both good movies, but the only thing male ants're
good for are impregnating new queens.

I feel worse. It sucks when everything you've accomplished means absolutely
DICK in face of feeling like crap. Ugh. I want sleep. I'm not making any of this up. Last
time I felt this sick was when I was in the seventh grade, and wasn't that maybe
two-three years ago? And I can't remember the last time I felt so bad I had to throw
up. Last time I remember throwing up was in 3rd grade, at Lori's house. Ugh. Heh.
That would be a real slap in the face; waitin' all month for Mid-Winter Break and being
sick through all of it. Ugh. My face feels fried.

Gee, my playlist really likes "Psycho Killer" by the Talking Heads. This is the second
time this hour without changing lists.

Currently Playing: "Psycho Killer" by the Talking Heads
...No school today due to a sudden February snowstorm...

I hope ya flip some guy the bird
He cuts you off and you're forced to swerve
In front of the Beatles' tour bus
A Bookmobile and a Mack truck
Hauling hazardous biological waste
The light turns red you have no brakes
And "Hard Copy" gets it all on tape
So you can see the look on your face

Die Die Die Die Die Die Die
Die Die Die Die Die Die Die

I hope your Pinto begins to spin
Takes out a disabled Vietnam Veteran
Mows down a Nobel Peace Prize Winner
And maybe some orphans having Christmas dinner
Perhaps even the British Royal Family
And the Rabbi that's clutching the bottle-fed puppy
And we can't forget the newlyweds
And those Jerry's Kids are as good as dead

I hope this helps to emphasize
I hope this helps to clarify
I hope you die

I hope your cellmate thinks he's God
But C.N.N. refer to him as "Bowling Ball Bag Bob"
Serving time again for abuse of a corpse
Only this time the victim's a Clydesdale horse
While he masturbates to photos of livestock
He does the "Silence of the Lambs" dance to Christian Rock
Eats feces and quotes from "Deliverance"
And fights with his imaginary playmate Vince

Die Die Die Die Die Die Die
Die Die Die Die Die Die Die

I hope he grins like Jack Nicholson
And forces you to play a game called "Balls On Chin"
And whatever happens next is all a blur
But you remember "fist" can be a verb
And when you finally regain consciousness
You're bound and gagged in a wedding dress
And the prison guard looks the other way
‘Cause he's the guy ya flipped the bird the other day

I hope this helps to emphasize
I hope this helps to clarify
I hope you die

I hope you die


Currently Playing: "Halloween" by Aqua

Thursday, February 15, 2001

Ugh. Bad day today. I feel like a bitch. And that's not a good thing to
me. I had to beat the clock while doing my science test (on astronomy,
mainly telescopes, lightyears, and stupid scientific notatoion). I was almost
out of time. Yeah. By like, five minutes. Whee. :B And tomorrow I have a
test in Algebra III that I just know I'm gonna blow. Isn't life grand?

I'm getting sick and tired of having to deal with the same old shit day in
and day out, and I don't know if I can stand it anymore. I think I might go
insane or that I've already lost my mind, I don't know.

Seems like everyone just loves that picture. Nice layout, ETToby, and hurry
up with the skin, will ya?

I myself am working on the Ed and Ein skin that Gen-chan sent to me.
It's not lookin' too hot. If that stupid ArcStudio trial didn't decide my trial
was up, I would post a picture of the mess so far, but... it did and I can't
so that's that.

Sorry, maximumnautius, I couldn't talk today. :P It's been a long
one indeed.

Oh, I cannot WAIT for Mid-Winter Break. Heavenly bliss from
incompetent morons and bothersome school... Well... I do like the
book we're reading for English, To Kill a Mockingbird.

Ugh. Ugh. Ugh. I want to throw up. Damn caffeine headache. x____X

Currently Playing: "Ex-Girlfriend" by No Doubt

Wednesday, February 14, 2001

I've never really liked Valentine's Day, to be honest, because it seems
like the time of year when people fake their spouses with flowers and
candy, and the same old shit begins happening again the next morning.
And also because I almost always get screwed one way or the other on
that day. Today was worse then the time in second grade when my birthday
fell on Friday, and my birthday is the 13th. Oh yes, people will tell you it's
just superstition, but trust me; it's not.

Anyway, it all started last night when my dad proceeded to call me a spoiled
brat. Obviously this took place after my obscene gloating. And while I
was sitting there, staring at him in disbelief, the phone rings and he answers
it. Turns out it's Mike, a friend of his and one of the few friends of his that I
actually know, he's not just some old dude. My dad then tells Mike that I'm
"whining" about the Chinese chow mein we had to eat, and that I didn't want
to eat it because I didn't like the taste of it (and it was from a can, so that
made me feel even sicker), and then he tried to placate me by telling Mike I
got a 4.0, but also that he had to go because I was crying.

Well, excuse me. It wasn't because there were vegetables in it. No, that's not the
reason. I like vegetables. Broccoli, cauliflower, carrots (raw only, not boiled),
corn, etc. (Just not peas, green beans, or lima beans.) But I didn't like the taste
of it. That's an entirely different thing.

So now I'm angry at my dad. "Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned." Yeah.

And then today I walk into first period band all grumpy and gloomy (as usual,
you could say), and then Mr. Myers finally decides today would be the day he
confronts me on my not-so-cheerful morning mood. He procedes to tell me
that if I compared my problems to the problems of other students, it would seem
like I had no problems at all.

Well, I understand that what he said is true, but that's not what I needed to hear.
Instead of making me feel grateful, it made me feel ungrateful for what I
have and then I felt worse. I began crying silently while reading "Insomnia." No
one saw me crying for a while.

And to put the cherry on top, James (the Ex-Boyfriend) decided he would finally
try to make peace with me. Now I understand that I am past it and that I should
forgive him, but he just picked the worst possible moment to confront me like
that. He tried to give me a Valentine and a little stuffed koala, but I just began
crying harder and told him to go away "and that he always made things worse."

So now I feel like shit. Yeah, he left the note and koala with me, but I gave it
to Kristen to give back to him, because that part of my life is over. The world
has moved on and left me behind, so I better run and catch up. I don't know what
happened to the note because I never got a chance to read it; maybe he took it
back, maybe someone else took it. I don't know and I care even less right now.

...I knew today was going to be a bad day. I honestly did. I should have stayed
in bed. But I don't want to miss school. And no, I don't like school that much.
I'm aiming for a 4 year perfect attendance. I missed it by two days in middle
school. Meh.

Thanks, Zeruel; I finally got another actual genuine compliment on my grades.
My dad's (for as long as it lasted, anyway) sounded a little sarcastic, and my
mom expects them so it's nothing really to her, and this girl named Amanda
Cobb (and I do NOT like her because of her attitude, and that's pretty much it)
blinked at me and said, "I dislike smart people."
...Well, how's this: "I dislike stupid people, and that means you." Oh, gosh,
that's so not nice of me.
*snort* Whatever. But thanks again.

I'm just feel all frazzled. I don't know. Maybe it'll clear up. I'm so confused and
lonely and beshitted right now, I can't think.

I'll get on that Ed and Ein skin ASAP, Gen-chan.

Today will just never end. Only good thing that happened today is that I just finished
myself a nice Ultimate Cheeseburger from Jack-in-the-Box. Now there's a real
romantic meal.

Currently Playing: "Crush with Eyeliner" by R.E.M. Why? Because I'm a
sad tomato. That's why.

Tuesday, February 13, 2001

AHEM! *big grin* Oh yes. Yes. I got my grades today. *flashes another
huge grin* Hee.

Concert Band Period One A
Student shows improvement in technical ability.

Honors English 9A Period Two A
Student Work--Special talent is consistently displayed.
Student applies newly learned ideas well.
Student completes work on time.


Honors Pacific Northwest History 9A Period Three A
Student is always cooperative and pleasant, a pleasure to work with in class.
Student consistently produces high quality work.


Health Period Four A
Quality work/special talent is consistently displayed.
Student is cooperative and pleasant.


Algebra II Period Five A
Student has shown ability and should be encouraged to continue with math.

Earth Science 1 Period Six A
Student is consistently doing high quality work.
Student has a very cooperative attitude and is eager to learn.
Student makes good application of newly learned ideas.


GPA = 4.0

Is this gloating? Is this bragging? Yes, it is. Am I ashamed? No, I have earned
such a right to show off. *big grin* Of course, it was pretty easy since the
classes are completely simple. The work is heavy, but it's fairly easy to follow
(it reminds me of being in middle school again).

Of course, I'll explain the PNW Honors History grade to Gen-chan later, who
will no doubt have questions concerning the authenticity of it. XD That was a
pretty good way of puttin' it, wasn't it?

...MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! I FEEL GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!
XD WHOO! Dance with me, y'all, I'm smart! :D

Oi. I sent in that short story fiction. It should reach Nebraska in three
business days, and the due date is February 16, 2001, so it'll be there by Friday
exactly, if all goes accordingly. Isn't that cutting it close? XD

I think I'll just sit here for a while, sip Dr. Pepper, munch on Sweethearts, and
gloat over my 4.0. XD (Don't worry, Gen-chan, I did write about a page in
the story.)

Currently Playing: "Dream On (LNJoyL Remix)" by Depeche Mode I can't
wait for the real version! XD

Monday, February 12, 2001

I finished writing my short story for the USA Weekend magazine.
x___X My dad says nothing really happens in the duration of it, and
he also says some parts I described were weird, but he also said he
ws a really bad writer to begin with and an ever worse critiquer, so I
guess it evens out. ^^;; Even though he's making fun of me right now
with the "the young blonde boy" parts. -___-;;

It sucks. But maybe the editors will like it. It's about a "young blonde
boy" named Alex who finally goes into a cave he's found and discovers...
well... I won't spoil it. If I win Honorable Mention or Grand Prize, you can
read it in the June 1-3 edition of USA Weekend Magazine. If I don't win,
I'll stick to writing stories that'll never see the light of being published. :P

*drools uncontrollably* Zeruel... Me likes new Seph.NET layout. Me likes
very much. *wanders off drooling*

Margot-san, it turns out that the X fanfic of Kamui and *BLANK* was deleted
indeed. ;___; But don't worry; I've conceived a new plot! >=D Ehehehehehe....

Currently Playing: "Stop!" by Erasure

Sunday, February 11, 2001

Ugh. x___x Hangover. Oy vey. Hee. But I'm not a teenybopper like
maximumnautius says. :P

My mom got mad at me for not going to last night's dance at the Temple
Theatre. *blows up* Yeah, if she wants to shell out $30 for the ticket at
the door, and then maybe another $30-40 finding some dress I'll never
wear again! My mom says going to dances is a part of growing up; I say
going to dances is a waste of time. >.< Hmmph. And we can't afford it,
at any rate. Argh. Now y'all know what I have to deal with. Some moms
would beg their daughters to stay away from dances; mine begs me to
go. x___x

I have the sudden urge to kill and maim and destroy people in our story,
but absolutely no creative juices are flowing right now. x___X And I'm hungry.
And there's homework to do, sitting right next to my computer. Argh. I simply
cannot wait until Mid-Winter Break. It couldn't come soon enough.

Currently Playing: "The Policy of Truth" by Depeche Mode

Saturday, February 10, 2001

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!
XDDDDDDDDDDDD HYPER! WOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
ACKITY ACKITY ACKITY! XDDDDDD WEEEEHEEEEE!!!!

*bushdances* HYPER! ERASURE HAPPY MUSIC! BOUNCY HAPPY! WHEE!
XDDDDDDDDDDD

WE ARE GUILTY! (*low voice* GUILTY!*) (*high voice* GUILTY!) XDDDDDDDDD
WEYHAY!!!!!! *dances insanely* XDDDDD CAFFEINE! MASHUUUUGA! WHEE!
LALALALALALALALA! WE ARE GUILTY! (*low voice* GUILTY!*) (*high voice* GUILTY!)

...MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! >XD
INFINITE BATTERIES! INFINITE ERASURE! KILL SIMS! >XD MUAHAHAHAHAH!
CAFFEINE! HYPER! XDDDDDDDDDDD

*screams* XDDDDDDD ERASURE + PAM = HAPPY! XDDDD BOUNCY! XDDDD
WHEEEE!!!!!!

Don't you wish you had a shotgun?! XD

Forever Dancing To: "Drama!" by Erasure
^^;; I had no idea that Draff read my blogger. XD I'll add his blog to
the list shortly enough.

Well, I had some fun torturing more Sims. Ole Headless has got
two more victims in the room, and soon enough they'll be dead.
Muahahahaha! XD

I haven't eaten a decent meal all day. And no, a bowl of soft Tin Roof
Sundae Ice Cream (sorry, Amoeba, I couldn't resist!) doesn't count as
a decent meal. >.> My stomach is mad at me.

What scares me is that all the while I was playing The Sims, I was listening
to Erasure's "Drama!" repeatedly. ^^;; I dunno, but that song makes me want
to shout (put my hands up and), shout (throw my hands up), and shout! XD
Lame, I know, but now I've got that durned song stuck in my head (a little
bit softer now).

Currently Playing: "Why's Everybody Always Pickin' On Me?" by the
Bloodhound Gang
Ruby-san, it IS a good layout! That shade of green is really nice!
I mean it! I'm not a great fan of green, but I do like that shade, and
just the generally layout is great. :D I don't see how anyone can NOT
like it.

I woke up pretty early today, took a shower, and got online. Not much
else to do except procrastinate on homework, on that short story for
USA Weekend magazine, and hunt around for that X fanfic I never finished.
Margot-san has "convinced" me to finish it. XD

Um... Watched "Mousehunt" again recently. XD I love that little mouse!
Also watched Cartoon Network last night, and who cares if I'm supposedly
"too old" for cartoons? I mean, you're never too old to laugh, right? -___-;;
XD New episode of the Powerpuff Girls! ^o^ And I don't care that they're
popular, I bet half the people with PPG merchandise don't even watch the
show. :P I loved them before they were popular, when they were just a
10 minute blurb on that "What a Cartoon" (is that what it was?) show. ^___^
Bubbles! XD

Oh yeah, I'll still get around to posting some appropriate pictures of the
Headless Horseman and my "kids-only" experiments. >=D

What a picture I must cut, dressed in fuzzy, torn jaguar slippers, dark
blue jogging pants, an olive green longsleeved shirt, my X/1999 shirt, and
a Coca-Cola beach towel wrapped like a turban around my head.
...
*laughs uncontrollably*

Currently Playing: "All the Small Things" by blink-182 This is such
a catchy song...

Friday, February 09, 2001

Law : 32
Chaos : 32
Good : 33
Evil : 23

You have no law/chaos bias.
You have 10 points towards Good

You are True Neutral with Good tendencies.


Wow. Despite what Gen-chan says, I'm really not an evil person, I guess.
XD

Thankies for the recognition, Zeruel. And all because I hate Squall. XD
Wow. If I could get that kind of recognition just for hating people I'd be
one well recognized person!

Ruby-san, me loves the new layout. *drools*

Oi. Had to stay after school to finish history project. I'll be getting to work
on my essay about stereotyping, and also that short story for the USA Weekend
contest. Pam'll be one busy typer. *prays her cut thumb can stand it*

Muahahahahahahaha... Weekend! Sleep in! ^o^ Woohoo! Although I do wish
Amoeba could spend the night... ;____; Ah, well, save it for the weekend after
next. For Mid-winter Break. ^o^ And then the teachers wonder why so many
students never learn anything...? Too many darn breaks. But hey, I'm not
complaining! XD

Currently Playing: "Piccolo-san Dai Suki" by Gohan (Masako Nozawa)
Gen-chan, don't you even DARE say a word... XDDDDDDD

Thursday, February 08, 2001

Ugh. The last two e-mails in my natakunomiko Hotmail account are
for Valentine's Day. Ewwww.... >.< Gross.

It's a bad thing when you make a hit list just in case you go postal... isn't it?

Today in school was easy. ^____^ All the work was easy. 'Cept Amber
can't come over Friday... T__T She's sick. Adn what's worse is my dad
agrees because he's getting sick too. x____X Oh well. I'll put the Tin Roof
Sundae Ice Cream away for another weekend...

...which sucks since I have two major things of homework to do this weekend...
Ugh. I hate those students teachers for 2nd and 3rd periods. UGH. >.< I know
I have no life, but this just makes it ever worse. @___@

XDDDD I joined Zeruel's clique! *points up* MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!
>=D I am the Great and Mightily Evil Pam! Go, Zell, go! ^o^ I'd take a Chickenwuss
over a Puberty Boy any day. ^___^

Wow. This hit list is long. O.O But it doesn't matter, because I'll bet he was cool
anyway! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! >XDDD

What would Jesus Christ wear? Tommy Hilfiger? Or Urban Outfitted? I bet he liked
Gaultier! XD *kisses the cover of her SG CDs* I LOVE YOU DARREN!

Currently Playing: "I'll Bet He Was Cool" by Savage Garden

Wednesday, February 07, 2001

I'd go on a motorcycle ride with my dad tonight (Goldwing, aw yeah!),
but it's too damn cold. >.<
Is it just me, or is Margot-san's Turbonium not loading? ;___;
Oi, Gen-chan, could you quite possibly be ever so kind so as to
change my favorite book on the "Personnel" section? Yeah, it would
now be The Dark Tower III: The Wastelands. Thankies.

It would have been the fourth one, Wizard and Glass, but
it was so boring near the middle when going back in Roland's past, and
the only things I really liked were the beginning, with the defeat of Blaine
(or Charlie the Choo-Choo, hehehe), and near the end, when they're "off
to see the wizard, the wonderful wizard of Oz." And I kid you not. Read it.
It's fantastico! XD
Oh, Zeruel, I would be most interested in joining that clique.
Zell all the way, baby! ^o^ *screams at the thought of Zell* I don't know
what it is, but he's MUCH cooler than Puberty Boy. Chickenwuss, yeah!
Woohoo! ^o^ Fixed it, thanks to my clever ways. No, GC, that < / font >
end tag didn't work when I tried it.

Um. *thinks* For the first time since I began chopping stuff (sounds lovely,
don't it?), I cut myself last night. >.< *curses tomatoes forever* Agh. But
it's partly my fault, since I was cutting towards my finger and not away.
And it sucks, because it's on the tip of my thumb on my left hand, and man!
does it hurt like a bitch!

Algebra III was incredibly easy today. Earth Science was fun. We're
studying astronomy now. XD

Amoeba, hope you're feeling well. :( You weren't at school today. Just remind
yourself of the ice cream and Dr. Pepper we'll have and cheer up, too. And
don't worry about me, I have an interestingly strong immune system. The only
time I was out of school for a while was chicken pox, and even if you did get me
sick I'd still go to school anyway because it's my duty. :\ And furthermore, all
those times I was absent in 3rd grade was because I was so bored with the
class I pretended to be sick and went home and read all day. XD Ah, the memories...

Yummy. Cold tacos. XD My dad thinks it's weird that I prefer them cold rather
than hot, but they're so yummy when cold!

But in Algebra III, Katrina (who's known my brother since 5th grade) wouldn't
stop talking to me when I was doing the *cough cough* "work." -___x (EASY!!!!)
She just went on and on and on... >.< Somebody better take her Energizer
battery out.

Oi vey. I want something cold and crisp right now. *wanders off to the garage
for some Dr. Pepper*

Wow! XD My life's pointless! ^O^ I have succeeded in finding the meaning of life.
There is none! *huggles her Sanosuke shirt* But Marika draws ever so well! *__*
Her CLAMP characters are gorgeous! *drools* Oh man, thanks to her drawings,
I might have to check out some CardCaptor Sakura... No, she doesn't watch
the chopped TV series, I don't think. And she thought X: The Movie was pointless,
too. Well, not pointless, but less entertaining since there was no neck-nibbling
and everyone but Kamui died. -____x

Listening To On My Crappy Headphones : "Stop!" by Erasure

Tuesday, February 06, 2001

Agh. I know what's wrong, but it won't let me fix it because there's
no link for the [edit] selection. >.< Agh. *kicks blogger* Stubborn
bitch.
Whoa. What happened?
Erk. o.o Don't ask what that post below is about. ^^;
...Found it! XD
Aphenphosmphobia- Fear of being touched (Haphephobia)
Arachnephobia or Arachnophobia- Fear of spiders
Atelophobia- Fear of imperfection
Automysophobia- Fear of being dirty
Ligyrophobia- Fear of loud noises
Nyctophobia- Fear of the dark or of night
Scopophobia or Scoptophobia- Fear of being seen or stared at


O_O; Scroll to the bottom left item and you'll see what I mean.

...I should've downloaded those extra tombstones when I had the chance.
T____T Oh well. I'll settle for putting pictures of the Headless Horseman's
victims above their urns. >=D Oh, yeah, I never blogged about ol' Heady...
Muahahahahahaha...

Oi. Zeruel. I'll be posting shortly on your message board. If I haven't deleted
the e-mail with the registration password... ^^;;

Currently Playing: "Blue Monday" by Orgy I love those drum parts. Can't
remember the correct term for them. Is it cadence?
Jim, aka "Peach", brought her handcuffs to school today. XDDD She
has a silver chain one and a black folding one. She said she needed to
get the chain one fixed because a spring was bent out of place, so I let
her cuff me with the black ones. Oh, man, I want a pair for my own
purposes. >=D And then I asked her if she had a whip, and she does.
12 foot long whip, present from her step-dad. XDDD No fair!

Today was all right, I guess. PE was pretty good. It didn't make me any
more sore, but it didn't help, either. x____X I can't rotate my shoulders
without killing my upper back, a sure sign that I am definitely out of shape.
Which is part of the reason why I'm taking PE, otherwise I would have
tried to take an elective class. :P

It was hard to find a good reason to get up this morning, but I did. And
I don't quite remember my dream, aside from the simple facts that 1) I
was enjoying it immensely and 2) there were crack dealers in it.
XDDD I don't know if the two mean anything specific when put together,
but I do remember that an Anime character was there, but I can't recall
who... o_O;; *thinks of Kamui* Nono, I guess he might take up smoking
to keep his thin figure. :B

Watched Men In Black last night because I had this insatiable
urge to. *shrugs* I liked the baby squid thing. XD It's so cute! :D And I
thought the giant cockroach alien was really cool-looking! The only thing
in that movie that grosses me out is that you can see the progressive
stages of the "Edgar skin" rotting. >.<;; At least they were... realistic, I
suppose. Although I don't think it would have rotted quite so quickly... ?

I am completely stuck on that stupid short story contest. I know what I
want to write but the words just won't... flow. The spirit is willing but the
mind is a stubborn bitch, and every beginning sounds cornier than the
last. x____X *sighs* I'll give it another go tonight, but I won't be expecting
too much...

I've already planned my birthday list in advanced. Now I figured out what
makes me happy. ^_~

1) Go to one of Depeche Mode's concerts on their upcoming tour
2) Get the new album, "Exciter"
3) Get an autographed picture of Depeche Mode
4) Get a Depeche Mode poster
5) Get all the Rurouni Kenshin tapes that have been released as far
as my birthday
6) Stephen King's new book, The Dark Tower V: The Crawling Shadow
if it comes out by then (which it probably won't)
7) The Sims' Houseparty (possibly; it doesn't look too great IMHO)
8) Move to California for the summer

...And that's it. Pretty long, but all I really want is Depeche Mode. :P And
maybe the California trip would be nice.

Currently Playing: "Kaze no Uta" by Nuriko (Sakamoto Chika)

Monday, February 05, 2001

Hey, GC! XD I'm not "deadly when crossed"!!! I'm just a little... forceful. That's all. >=D
And I think we're on the ninth. Or maybe you're right. Seven, working on the eighth. >.< I never
had a good memory anyway. :P
UUUUUUUGGGGGHHHH....

People have peaks and valleys in their life. They have them in their days, too. I
have mine in five seconds.

First of all, it started in second period when I was unfairly punished because of my
group, which dearly loves to chat, mind you, and to start off a wonderful *cough*
semester, I am now 30 points in the hole for Mr. Dodge. *screams* Why why why
why why why why...

Then I went into "bitchslap look-at-me-and-I'll-kill-you" mode and turned on poor Amoeba
when she tried to comfort me. X____x Ugh. Not a good friend I am.

Then a vigorous workout in PE (which felt good despite the pain) and playing a round of
pickleball (we never quite managed to actually get a game going) cheered me up immensely,
not too mention I got my daily infusion of caffeine and was happy until 5th when I had to face
the music and the idiots and suffer a horrible Algebra III math class with incompetent morons
who don't even know how to use a number line. I mean, c'mon, a NUMBER LINE. X________X
That was ALGEBRA I STUFF....

*sighs* Anyway, it's been a shitty day, ending with me having to spend the last thirty minutes
downloading a "new and improved version of NetZero, guaranteed to make surfing easier!"

...BULLPUCKEY!!!!!!!!

This day will never end.

Oi. Zeruel, it's not "hell fucking no." It's "hell yeah" and "Heaven no." XD
GC, you are a god. You are the fries on the side with a cherry on top.
Ruby-san, the layout is fanastic. It's superb. It's absolutely stunning! ^____^
Amoeba, just think, on Friday we'll retreat into a safety of Dr. Pepper and Tin
Roof Sundae Ice Cream. My tastebuds are in ecstacy right now. :D~~

...And that's it for right now. I currently have no views on the world, since the world
cares not an iota for me. :P

Currently Playing: "Just Can't Get Enough [Live]" by Erasure I actually think
I like this version better than Depeche Mode's...

Sunday, February 04, 2001

...According to this TheSpark Test, I should be an it. (It's just the picture part).
But in the end they said I was "definitely a woman!" (The word "woman" was
in pink, a color I could "definitely" do without!) Wingy says I stumped the
quizlet, but I just answered as honestly as possible. (For the "Canada sucks, huh?"
question, I put "yeah" because it sounded more like it was "off-handish" and that
I didn't give a crap one way or the other). The meter bar (not shown in picture) was
right smack dab in the middle between male and female, thus proving my ever-so-
amazing flexibility concerning gender (and no I do not get along well with other girls).
This is one tough dude with PMS. *laughs mirthlessly* Yeah.

One last note before I tuck away.

YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES OH MY GOD JUST GO TO HELL AND LEAVE ME
ALONE WOULD YOU?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! YEAH, YOU, AND YOU KNOW EXACTLY
WHO I MEAN SO GO AND FUCK YOURSELF EVEN IF IT'S GENERICALLY
IMPOSSIBLE! DO I GIVE A DAMN? NO! JUST LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE
BEFORE I GROW UP TO BE A SERIAL KILLER AND LAUGH WHEN THE
CHILDREN AND ADULTS I KILL BEG AND SCREAM AND PLEAD FOR MERCY
AS I HAVE DONE BEFORE SO JUST GET THE HELL AWAY FROM ME AND
DIE!

Thank you. Good night.
# 1 Salesperson
# 2 Teacher
# 3 Chef
# 4 Artist
# 5 Author
# 6 Chemist
# 7 Computer Game Programmer
# 8 Doctor
# 9 Engineer
# 10 Geneticist


...NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
>.<;; That's not fair! *bashes head against desk* I HATE confrontations
like that with other people! *insert excessively long scream*

...Why is Author so low? ;___; *retakes test*

# 1 Teacher
# 2 Chef
# 3 Artist
# 4 Author
# 5 Graphic Designer
# 6 Park Ranger
# 7 Salesperson
# 8 Web Designer
# 9 Mathemetician
# 10 Movie Star
I don't know what makes me happy anymore. I remember, back when I
was seven or eight (and with Gen-chan there, too), we'd play with my
Lego sets all day. Now, I'm not talking your pink Paradise Park Legos or
whatnot, we're talking castles and dragons and ninjas. I have four dragons.
That was fun. That made me happy.

...I really don't know what I'd do without my imagination. I swear. I think I
would have committed suicide long ago if I didn't have the ability to close out
everything else and just disappear within myself. I guess that answers my question
of why people always think I look sad sometimes.

I feel kinda lonely. My idea of a perfect friend would be someone who can handle
my ever-changing moods without a hitch, someone who understands my need to
be with someone but not necessarily talk, someone who enjoys talking about
anything and everything and loves switching from one subject to the next without
so much as a pause in between. Someone who knows when I want a hug and
when I want to punch someone. Yeah. That's my perfect friend.

And did I mention someone who shares the same taste in drink as myself? Not
to mention someone who isn't blind to the fact that Nataku is just the bestest
X character (possibly Anime character) of all time, someone who'll cheer Fuuma
on every time we watch X, someone who'll turn off the sound to an episode of
Japanese DBZ and make up hilarious subtitles.

In essence, someone like me. There's a lot of proof about "opposites attract"
and that sort of thing, but to me, my opposite would be a freakishly happy,
sprightly cheerleader type without a grain of sense in her head and a sluttish
taste in clothing. Yeah... my opposite would really attract me... x___X
My guy opposite would be a serious stick-in-the-mud who only has two emotions;
neutral and more neutral.

But that's just wishful thinking. I'm not so optimistic so as to think I would actually
find another person like me.

"Run To The Sun"
Erasure

For the first time in my life
I'm up to run away
It's not a choice that I made easily

It's not that I'm ashamed
To face the light of day
It's really just a case of self delusion

And I know it ain't easy
I know it ain't easy
I know it ain't easy
To see the truth

So run to the sun
Here's one for the road
And may God's love go with you
My tears are starting to show
Woah...

(Run to the sun
And may God's love go with you
I cry my tears
Who will be my hero)

That I should fall from grace
Implies a twist of fate
But I'm open to the joys and woes of passion

And who shall take the wheel
When it's time for overkill
There's no release when destiny is calling

And I know it ain't easy
I know it ain't easy (Somebody reach me)
I know it ain't easy (Willing to teach me)
To see the truth

So run to the sun
Here's one for the road
And may God's love go with you
My tears are starting to show
Woah...

So run to the sun
Here's one for the road
Though I'll never be lonely
Are you so high above me?
Woah...

Run to the sun
See how my life is changing
The days go by
I wonder if I'll make it

Saturday, February 03, 2001

Whee. Man, I've had my CD player (that looks like a bug, according
to Gen-chan) since Christmas 1999, and I still don't know all the
functions. @____@;; I mean, it says to leave the buttom unpressed to
play both sides ofthe tape continuously, but it doesn't even switch sides!
I have to keep getting up and rewinding it, and you know "In-A-Gadda-Da-Vida"
is about 17 minutes long... x______x;;;

Mmm... I love looking on Amazon and staring at hunky pictures of Darren Hayes.
*drools* Oh man... XDDD I finally got my "Truly Madly Deeply" Japanese Import
CD back from my brother... XDDDDD *kisses the cover* I love you Darren! XDDDD

Ugh. I remember waking up at 6 this morning with a caffeine headache (I swear I
had no Dr. Pepper four hours prior to when I went to sleep! I swear it!), and then I
fell back asleep and woke up feeling hungover, and then I went back to sleep again
and woke up somewhat better. ^^;;

Oooh! XD Call me Apricot! Jenny Marie (or Jim, as I call her), has a nickname, too!
Hers is Peach, and Eric's nickname is Nectarine! XDD We tried to get Mr. Myers to
be Plum, but he wouldn't agree... v__v

...Do you think Zager and Evans, the group/people who sang, "In the Year 2525" read
Brave New World by Aldous Huxley? o_O;

Currently Playing: "Rush (ETR Live)" by Depeche Mode

Friday, February 02, 2001

Aaugh. >.< Sorry, Ruby-san, to have left you hanging in such a rude
manner, but my father was angry that the school thought that I still
had a Geometry book, and that we had to pay $56 dollars for it, so he
told me to disconnect so he could call them up and yell at them. Well,
it turned out to be a lot longer than a normal call, but at least we got
the matter straightened up. x___x I know I turned the book in to Mr. Carleton
before I transfered into Algebra II. They said that he had left a lot of business
unfinished after leaving Mt. Tahoma as a sub, so it's all his fault and I'm not
gonna be charged. ^o^ BTW, Ruby-san, The Sims is definitely worth
it, so get it! You can torture them to your heart's content! XDDDD

Oi vey. x____X My head hurts. I still have to finish the take-home final for I
Heard the Owl Call My Name
. >.<;; Man, that book was all right, but I read
it in dribs and drabs, so it's all disconnected in my memory. x___X I'm gonna get
a low score, I just know it.

Ugh. Ugh. Ugh. I seriously don't want to play at the basketball game tonight.
I was singing "In-A-Gadda-Da-Vida" all day in my mind today because of Mr. Myers,
and I intend to get mad at him for that. XD

Crap, I've still forgotten to write in the story. I had such a good part for Ardor and
Renege's deaths. ;___; I better not forget it before tonight. (They get blown up and
there's this whole emotional part with Rebel and Stephan *sniff*.) Isn't writing fun?
XDDDDDD I love this powertrip.

Currently Playing: "Forever Love (Original Version)" by X-Japan (Don't ask why I
have this song, I just do and it's one hella long sucker but I love it anyway!)
Yes. It's obvious. I do thrive on the approval of others. I
need other people to tell me that I did a Good Job, and sometimes
I deny it because I don't believe it (such as Amoeba's repeated insistences
that I'm smart). It's all because I have very low self-esteem and confidence
levels. Very low. x___X

(BTW, Amoeba, your page in the box thingy says it can't be displayed.
Just thought you should know.)

Currently Playing: "Satellite" by Depeche Mode
x____x I had a breakdown in 2nd and 3rd periods today. I was so sure,
absolutely positive, I was going to get a 4.0, but it turns out that
I have an A- in Mr. Dodge's class. *cries* It's horrible. I know you're probably
either rolling your eyes or freakin' out and shouting, "A-?! I'd kill for an
A-!!!!!" But it IS a big deal, but not to me. My parents. Yes. The root of
all evil lies in my mother. I'm serious. And I am so going to disappoint my father.
T_____T *cries*

Anyway, I guess it was all right after that. Screw P.E. I'd rather sit on the couch
and munch on dried papayas and sip Dr. Pepper than do "The Pacer."

But 5th period was all right. You know your teacher's cool when he fulfills your
request to play "They're Coming To Take Me Away" by Doctor Demento. ^___^
Mr. Williams is one of my favorite teachers. XD I asked him if he had Depeche Mode
on his playlist, and he said he did but maybe only one song, and he couldn't
remember which one. x___X *sighs* Oh well, you win some you lose some.

Meh. Still looking for MALE HEAD MESHES for THE SIMS. Yes. In capitals to
make it stand out more because I like it like that. :B Oi. Hey, though, the Hunter
family has yet another new addition! Now we have Lanceton and Julian (both adults),
and their adopted sons Caprichoso (try going through life with a name like that),
Vincenzo, and Alexei (named after the guy who went exploring with Vitus Bering). If
I get another offer for adoption and it turns out to be a guy (again), I'll name him Vitus.
Or maybe Alejandro (or spelled the way I want to, Allahondro).

That's all for now. Time for a caffeine infusion. *twitches*

Currently Playing: "Break Me Shake Me (Acoustic Live)" by Savage Garden

Thursday, February 01, 2001

Ugh. x___X I need some REALLY GOOD MALE HEAD MESHES
for The Sims. Anyone know where I can find some? Man, I see all
these skins with these good heads on them, but the heads don't
come with the skins and they never say where they get them. *screams*
Annoying! >.<;;
XD Sorry, Ragabash. ^^;; I guess it's easy to tell when I'm gone. It's
so quiet. As for that "Redneck Family Tree" I have an (somewhat)
appropriate picture to go along with it. And it ain't pretty. O_O;;

Gen-chan, I would if I had money but I don't so I can't and that's that.

If I get my lazy ass going, Zeruel, I'll add you to the List of Links. ^^;;

WINGY! XDDDDDDDDD Missed you, dahling! ^^;;

Why is everyone making such a big deal over John Ashcroft or whatever?
o_O;; If you don't have legit proof that he wouldn't be a good AG (and why
not with his 30 year untainted record?), then don't say "Well, he MIGHT
do this..." Don't presume to assume, or was it the other way around? Anyway,
that's what Mr. Myers said about something completely unrelated to this
subject, so I'll shut up now.

Don't be afraid if I leave for another three days or so. This might be an unintended
act of conserving internet time until we get our own service provider. @____@;;
Yeah, uh, sorry I've been missing. ^^;; I know, I know, I left so abruptly.
That's because NetZero's not free anymore, and is now only allowing
40 free hours a month. o_O; Glad it was near the end of the month when
it decided our 40 hours was up.

Anyway, Briana's birthday party was great! We ate, played Life, ate
some more, then played the Survivor board game, then ate again, then
Gen-chan and I ended up reading the "Outwit" cards from Survivor to each
other and solving the riddles. Then we played "You Don't Know Jack" and then
left after watching "Yan Can Cook." XDDDD

I got voted off the island first during the Individual Play. That's okay; my vote
was the deciding vote. XD I voted for myself because I didn't feel mean enough
to kick anyone else off. XDDDD

Thanks for the compliments on the skin, Sakura. ^^;; Much appreciated, though I'll
only remain to see it as mediocre. (Even if Krad is drop-dead hunkified GORGEOUS!)

Semester change. All my class are the same except instead of health I have Intro.
to P.E. x___x;; I'm gonna hate it when we have to swim. Oi.

My grandmother sent me this contest entry for writing a short fiction for the USA
Weekend. ^__^ I feel special because she saw it and remembered how much I
love to write. The requirements are that it has to be 1500, typed and double-spaced
on 8.5 by 11 inches paper, I have to have a teacher sponsoring me, and it has to
take place in present time and in the season summer. -___-;; I hate requirements.
Oi. It can be in by no later than February 16, so if I want to do this, I have to really
bust my butt on it. I'll probably do it and get Mrs. Iverson to sponsor me. What could
it hurt? ^^;; I'll know by May 1 if mine was the winner or one of the Five Honorable
Mention, and you guys will know too because I'll be bragging about a $2,000 college
scholarship if I win Grand Prize, or $250 to spend on books or computer software if
I get Honorable Mention. ^^;; I'm too optimistic with things like this. But hey, it can't
hurt to send them a piece of my creativity, can it? I think the hardest part will be
coming up with a decent idea. x___X

Anyway, that's all that's really new in my life. Sorry if I've been slow in replying to
blog posts and/or e-mails. NetZero sucks. XD

I actually enjoyed the Survivor boardgame, but when Briana mentioned that
Richard ran around naked on the show my interest declined rapidly. ^^;;

Currently Playing: "Love Can Move You" by Savage Garden