Crap. I had a very funky dream last night. x_X

It involved Bird, Ragabash, and myself in a sort of open valley place with a lot of other people. There were five "bad guys" and they kept trying to kill us, so we had to keep running. Ragabash blinded the archer woman, and then we hid in a big crowd of people, but I got claustrophobic and left the crowd. The evil guys saw me, and we had to keep running. Then Bird suggested we hide underneath a bunch of sleeping people, so we did. o_O Then it cut to this funky, snowy place, with a little kid of about eight who didn't want to be embarrassed about his age, but then some Mystic God Thing came down and created a bunch of copies of the little kid, all of which were acting immature and embarrassing the kid.

Then the dream went back to we three hiding underneath a bunch of sleeping bodies. The blind archer woman was trying to smell us out, but then Zujiro (an Esoran thing from my story that I'm working on) flew out of the sky and rescued us.

And that was my dream.

Oh yeah, Gen-chan and I finished Jak & Daxter yesterday. From start to finish, it took about two days, without any outside help. Well, except for that one guy who looked like a Hispanic Fred Durst on the PS2 Sampler CD Gen-chan had; he showed us how to get a very difficult Power Cell. w00t. Anyway, when we were trying to destroy the last two Dark Eco Crystals in the Spider Caves, I almost went online to find out how the hell you could destroy them, but then Gen-chan discovered that you could dive deeper by repeatedly tapping X (or whatever button it was). -_- Well, maybe if the game had a tutorial or something, we wouldn't have been stressed out for over half an hour. The game manual never even mentioned diving or swimming in water, so naturally I assumed that a foot was about as deep as Jak could dive.

Today I woke up around noon to a bunch of screaming, and after listening for several minutes, I found out that a neighbor on the street over was attacked by another neighbor's dog (or something), and that the neighbor who owned the dog needed help restraining her dog and that someone had to start up a car and take the victim to the hospital. x_X And I thought the screaming had just been some new game those darned kids made up. Those kids are always playing, from the moment I wake up until I go to bed, they're screaming and laughing and just generally annoying me.

But I sure hope that neighbor who got attacked is OK.

winamp: Psycho Killer by the Talking Heads

Finished The Count of Monte Cristo again. I cannot believe I missed that much the first time around. @_@ The subtle hints, and mistakes, too! Ah well. I'm always in a semi-desperate state when I read a book. Sometimes I read so fast I give myself a headache, and usually I stay up really late until the point where I fall asleep with the light on and the book in my hands. Ha ha. Well, that's better than not reading at all. ^_^

I did find that song, after all. It's by a group called the Afghan Whigs, and the artist of Arcana graciously sent me a link as to where I could download it. XD (I'll probably post the link later; right now I don't have my inbox window open).

Heh heh heh... Today I feel evil. Especially so. I'll probably go bother Gen-chan at her house later today, so that she may borrow Jak & Daxter and that I may borrow some new books. Bwahaha.

Also, I am under the impression that the word "clavicle" is perhaps one of the coolest words ever. XD I substitute it for "heart" quite often, which almost never fails to crack up the Super Friends. "Oh, you wound me right here! My clavicle bleeds!"

...Clavicle. XD

winamp: What's Your Name (Extended) by Depeche Mode

If these are lyrics, then I must find the song. @_@ Help?

x_x The bowl of Cinnamon Toast Crunch made me feel sick.... Blarg....

And I swear, the level of whiskey in the Jim Beam Bottle is going down. My dad won't believe me when I tell him, every time I pass by the kitchen, it's down a little more. Either the cap's not on tight enough and it's evaporating (if whiskey can evaporate... it should, it has some water), or someone's taking a shot or so every night.

...Hmmm.

Finished The Black Swan last night. Now I know why I have nothing to read. -_- I don't stop when I get a book. Seriously. *grumble* I'm back to reading The Count of Monte Cristo again. But now that I know how things actually go in the book, it's not as confusing and I can really get down to finding all the mistakes. :D

I will write today, because writing always makes me feel better. Sometimes I wish I had the power to make things from my writing come to life (like Hydro!) but... alas. That, as they say, only happens in books. -_-

Hydro: I am alive. I'm in your mind, aren't I?
Pam: Well, yeah, but it's not the same. <_<
Hydro: Tell me about it. No VR training here.
Pam: Heh heh. Raiden. *snerk* XD I'm gonna go play Metal Gear Solid 2 now.
Hydro: You just want to watch him run around naked.
Pam: If only I could be that agile and subtle with clothes on....

winamp: Assassins by Positively Dark

I deleted the last post about drawing (I don't know if anyone read it, but it doesn't matter now) after my dad talked to me. I had sat down at the table, determined to draw even if it meant staying up all night, but then my dad came in and asked me what I was doing. I told him pretty much everything, from my decision and determination to draw to why I was so determined, and blah blah blah...

But then, like the wonderful father he is, he told me that it didn't matter whether or not I could draw, and that I shouldn't force myself to do something just because I feel like I should be able to do it. He also pointed out that I was never satisfied with what I wrote, so that if I started to draw, it would just end up the same there. And he's right, because it's true. No matter how I try to tell myself that it's not supposed to be perfect, a part of my mind that won't shut up will always insist that it must be perfect, otherwise it's wrong.

He also noted that I'm pretty terrible at letting others read what I write, so my drawings would probably end up in obscurity as well. Dad recommended sticking to my strengths and working on improving what I'm already confident about. While that may not be what a lot of people would recommend, it makes sense. Why should I beat myself up over something I want to have, but probably never will? Artistic talent has to be honed, yes, but first of all you must have something to hone. There can't be something out of nothing. I might have some artistic tendencies, but my hand will never obey my brain in all aspects, and something is just lost on the way down.

I'll still be down about not being able to draw wonderful things, but then again if I write well enough, it won't matter that I can't draw. Because the reader should be able to see the descriptions in his/her mind.

Heh. Writing is a form of art. Words and expressions are difficult for a lot of people, but not especially for me. I should be happy about that, at least. ^_^ Leave the writers to their writing and the artists to their sketches, their pottery, whatever.

I feel ever so much better now. Maybe it's the caffeine speaking, but getting over denial is great.

winamp: Sharp Dressed Man by ZZ Top
Just the song for a sexay Yuuto theme. XD

Ahh.... nothing like getting out of bed at 12 in the afternoon. Ho ho ho. Anyway, a lot of stuff happened yesterday. GC and I went to Barnes & Noble, met Joe, stalled for time while waiting for Grace and David, then finally gave up and went to see Austin Powers in Goldmember. About fifteen minutes into the movie the film burned, and none of us realized it until about ten seconds after the event occured, then when the film bubbled.... we knew. x_x They fixed it, started the movie, all was well. It cut out again. Fixed it after a considerably longer period of time, and then it cut out again. Finally we gave up and got a refund, then met Grace and David in B&N. They were late 'cos they had missed the first bus. We hung out, looked at books, then left. Looked around other various mall stores, then left.

I bought a nifty book called Tokyo Suckerpunch by Isaac Adamson while at B&N. Alas, it was the bright pink color and punching fist on the cover that attracted my eye. Finished it last night, too, and it was pretty good. Kinda confusing, but it had a lot of stuff in it worthwhile.

Actually, now that I think about it, the book has to be really stupid in order for me to hate it, and I really have no idea what makes me like or not like a book. The book I will always hate is The House on Mango Street. O_O You cannot believe how much I hated that book. Grr. I'll never read anything by Cisneros again.

So, then.... that's about it. Oh, and I started reading a new comic. She makes me so envious. Why is it that every Asian person I know (whether personally or internetly) can draw well or do some kind of art well except for me? I feel genetically cheated somehow. *dejected sigh* I'm gonna start practicing again. I really need one of those HOW TO DRAW MANGA or ANIME CHARACTERS books, or something like that.

winamp: Leave (Extended) by R.E.M.

Super Mario: Video game icon or Communist?

Woohoo! Not only am I "Internet Enthusiast" but I am also "Current Resident"! Yes!

Hydro: Yours is a paltry victory. I got "Occupant."
Pam: Curse you!

winamp: He Got The Wrong Foot Amputated by Bob Rivers

Whee! Results from a link I lifted from Clawed...






Find your Role-Playing
Stereotype at mutedfaith.com.
[Angel.]


XD I really wasn't expecting that. How could someone like me get Kamui Shirou on an X test, then get Demi-God on this test? It don't make no sense. Meh.

'Tis too hot to do anything but read, write, and quaff unholy amounts of Dr Pepper.

On further note, I love Draffie and Wingy's new collaborative blog layout. :D (And yes, that screenshot reminds me of Wario Stadium in MK 64. o.O What game is it from?)

winamp: Sabitsuita Machine Gun De Ima O Uchi Nukou by Wands

*gasp* One Night in Paris?! Martin sings a song in his dressing room?! Oh, I have been away from Depeche Mode dot com for too, too long.... *sobs* Must get it...

Truly, life is grand when you've ice cream for lunch. I wonder how long this nice weather is going to last?

Hydro: Well, you could always watch the news and wait for "that cute weatherman" to come on.
Pam: Hey, I was decaffeinated! I was liable to say anything in such a state!
Hydro: ....
Pam: He is... um... He only comes on at night, anyway!

winamp: Smokin' in the Moonlight by Left Hands

Sweet nutrients! *cradles can of Dr Pepper* Oh, beloved, we were separated for far too long...

winamp: Why Won't You Die by _channel_

Alas, Gen-chan, we knew thee well... (and you still have my PS2 memory card. Grr.)

I've been forgetting too many birthdays recently, starting off with Zeruel's, then Krystal's, and now Ragabash's. Happy belated birthday to you all (and to Zeruel, really belated. @_@ I'm a whole month late).

It must be the lack of caffeine. I couldn't even sleep last night. Just the incessant pounding in my head and the horrible thirst. So, this is what it feels like to be an alcoholic without even drinking alcohol. >_> No, thank you.

I should probably start reading the Washington Driver's Manual thing, but... every time I look at it, I envision myself driving and crashing into numerous amounts of people. Yeah, twenty-five points for the baby carriage, but honestly... I don't want to kill anyone. My mind tends to wander when I'm in any kind of car, and if I get behind the steering wheel and start to space out... well... that can't be good.

Besides that, I need a job. Badly. On top of all the birthdays I have to catch up on, there are tons of games coming out soon that I want. Such as Super Mario Sunshine, Tetris Worlds (it's already out), Kingdom Hearts, Eternal Darkness (already out, too)... And I need more books. I'm reduced once again to reading the same books over and over again. I'd go to the library to pick up some of the books on the Required Summer Reading list, but there's just something about used books. I have no problem borrowing from friends, but to think that hundreds, perhaps thousands of hands have turned the same pages as mine... I don't know. I guess I'm just nitpicky about my books.

winamp: Creepin' Up on You by Darren Hayes
Pretty much the only pop in my life aside from Erasure. And Dr Pepper. XD

Hello, everybody! You're all marvelous! XD

Hydro: ....Did it work?
Pam: No.
Hydro: Damn.

winamp: Drunken Sailor by Captain Tractor

LAVITZ! *cries* NOOOOOO!

*sniffle*

Anyway, I had the funkiest dream last night. I dreamt that I went to see a magic act in outer space (but there was an antigravity machine at the place). Kamui was dressed up in a sequined bra and panties, and he was theassistant to Fuuma the Mystical Magician. Fuuma disembodied people as his act, and when he called for volunteers, I jumped out of my seat and shouted, "Ooh, ooh! Pick me!"

Dr Pepper's new creation, Red Fusion, does strange things to me at night. And that was only one can. x_X

winamp: A Friend In Need Is A Friend Indeed by Placebo
A friend in need is a friend indeed / A friend who bleeds is better

I'm only on for two reasons; one is to brag about the nifty Link action figure Jenny got for me (complete with Epona and "Swinging Sword Action"), and the other is because the laptop is doing the Funky Screen Thing again where it goes all lined and then doesn't load up. Last time I fixed this problem by simply not using it for two months.

But I can't wait two months. Last Saturday I started a new writing project, and since then I've been writing 18 4/5 pages per day. @_@ I can't stop now!

So, I need to go and write. Luckily, my magnetized hematite bracelet is helping my wrist. And no, the magentized part isn't affecting the laptop, otherwise it would have done this sooner, and the Funky Screen Thing has happened before without it. No time for social blog. Work, work, work! And maybe I'll open the package and play with Link's "Swinging Sword Action." Ho ho ho...

But I have missed reading the blogs and webcomics I normally look at... I suppose it won't hurt to take a break.

winamp: The Last Saskatchewan Pirate by Captain Tractor

¬_¬ What the heck? I cannot believe this. I took this Dragons of Heaven test I found at Reinselft-san's blog, and I got....

You're Shirou Kamui!
Congratulations-- the Power of God is in your hands. Well, maybe not, but you do occasionally feel as if the weight of the world is on your shoulders, and sometimes you just want to run away to escape it all. You mean well, but you are sometimes short-tempered and don’t necessarily think things through before you do them. Friendship is very important to you, as is loyalty. You have a lot of growing to do, but deep down you really are a good person.
Which Dragon of Heaven are you?
Quiz by Kerianne

This isn't possible. It really isn't. >.<#

I can't play FreeCell for some reason. I think the program was messed up somehow.... ;_; I was so addicted to that game that I'd start playing it without even being aware that I was playing it until five minutes into the darned game. *sigh*

Not much has been happening lately. I did go to Briana's party for the 4th, which was fun but also bad because of the good food (almost too good) and lack of sleep. Oh well. We played DDR until Briana and Gen-chan couldn't stand straight (I'm not fantical like them), then watched Moulin Rouge (it's such a hilarious movie, I like Ziedler and the Duke's version of "Like a Virgin"). I even laughed when Satine died (which is not a spoiler, hah), because Christian sounded like he was laughing, only he wasn't. But it sounded like it. Honestly. Oh yeah, we watched the fireworks, but they weren't spectacular. Someone behind us thought they were, though. -_-;;

Ugh. So tired. I stayed up 'til 1 AM last night to finish A Kiss of Shadows, which I had started earlier that day. While it's certainly, uh, more spicy than the Anita Blake series, at least Merry (the main character) isn't having an attack of morality every other page. Hee. I like Barinthus. He reminds me of Hydro (minus the superly long hair and webbed fingers).

Hydro: I'm so... honored.
Pam: XD Now I can't picture anyone else being him. So, what's up, fish man?
Hydro: ¬_¬# I'll go this way now.

My parents went to take Tina to the vet (hope she's okay...), but I'm afraid to start playing Tsuganai because for some unknowable reason I get the feeling that as soon as I start they'll come home, and Mom will kick me out of the family room (as she always does) to watch her Korean soap operas.

...I need a job. Report cards did come in the mail, though. All I need to do is turn a copy of it in now, but no one's home. I got straight A's (but I did have a doubt, because Mr. Blazey has actually given me an undeserved A minus by mistake, when in his gradebook it clearly said I had an A). Everyone says junior year is the hardest, so I'm prepared not to kill someone if I don't get another 4.0.

All right, that's enough of that. Back to my boring life and reading The Count of Monte Cristo (it's so cool). I was thinking about making a new layout, but ever since that Sephiroth wallpaper I've been working on for several months came out so horribly purple I've just given up on the idea of it... for now. We'll see in a few weeks or so.

winamp: Every Me Every You (Sneaker Pimps Remix) by Placebo