*flames angrily* ME WITH FIRE?! CHIPMUNK TALK?!

Oh. Duh. *slaps forehead* Holy Bible. Me so smaaaat. >.<#

My fingers, the tops of my hands, and my wrists are experiencing twinges of pain as I type this. Of course, I've been typing nonstop for the past... oh... five hours, so that could be why. o_x If my hands aren't completely useless by the time I'm done with high school, I'll call it a blue-eyed wonder and admit that I have problems.

Hydro: Ha ha.
Pam: T__T I'm sorry Hydro. But we have wondahfun plans for you! ^__^
Hydro: Neh?
Pam: Mostly involving aphrodisiacs, but hey....
Hydro: O___O
Pam: Tee hee. *innocent look*

cs: "Love My Lips" by Larry (VeggieTales)
If my lips ever left my mouth / Packed a bag and headed south / That'd be too bad / I'd be so sad

Two words. HELL YEAH. XDDDDDDD

Hydro's mad at me. Every time I go to talk to him, there's a little "Back in five minutes" sign hanging on the door to his.... room. This is a bad sign. He must still be hurting over the fact that I killed his wife yesterday. *sigh* I had to kill someone, you know?

cs: "Synthesis" by Kooz
Ugh. I can't believe Fallout Shelter no. 028 changed their name to this. >.<#

We went soul searching. ^^ Soul searching that involved a plot with a burlesque house, drinking Dr. Pepper, laughing over "Well, kiss my grits!" and "There's a sock in my hole!" and writing furiously in the longhand. Nice layout. ^.^

I am naive. Do tell me what it is. The second word is Bible, right?

Awww.... Get on AIM and talk to me, boy.

Bwahaha. Nothing like opening WinAmp and seeing Kotori being torn apart. ^__^ A Harley? Muchly cool, though I prefer Goldwings.

True dat, homie, but even casting aside bad dubbing, DBZ wasn't really anything to rave about, upon reflection. Even though Vegeta is just so bad ass. XD

*squeals madly* I want I want I want!!!!

Got this from Dora-chan. I'll fill y'all in on Roughing It at Sol Duc some other time.

7 things I fear: (in no particular order)
- Falling from high places (not actual heights themselves ^^)
- Dying
- Killing
- Spiders
- People staring at me
- The chipmunks at Sol Duc O_O
- Failure


7 things that make me laugh:
- Whose Line is it Anyway? XDDD
- Cliff ;_; I miss him.
- "Well, kiss my grits!"
- Hydro and Pyre. XD
- Yaoi. ^^;;
- Jim Carrey
- Men with high voices. XD XD XD

7 things that make me cry:
- The world
- Pain (mostly emotional)
- PMS
- Writing that part about Wraith angsting over Felony ;__;
- Hydro being sad
- Feeling incomplete
- Feeling insecure


7 things I hate:
- The world
- People
- Slow connections
- Myself
- Idiots
- Suddenly receiving self-mutilating thoughts (like eating hot coals)
- Myself (did I already say that?)


7 things I love: (in no particular order)
- Hydro
- Dr. Pepper
- Nataku, Nataku, and for a change, LOTS of Nataku
- Being competent
- My vocabulary
- Writing and reading
- Playing DDR (I'm addicted now)


7 things I don't understand:
- You
- What makes people do what they do
- Myself
- My friends @.@
- Why people do drugs
- Why I am so mentally masochistic
- The universe (couldn't think of anything else)


7 things on my desk:
- A bag of David Sunflower Seeds (I love muchly)
- The notebook containting about 20 pages written in longhand
- My stuffed dolphin named Dolly
- Sunflower seed shells ^^
- My airplane mousepad
- Many many computer games and CDs
- VeggieTales tape (the "Madame Blueberry" episode)


Right now you are: eating sunflowers seeds while wearing a towel wrapped around my hair and listening to music and talking to Alan-kun ^^


7 facts about me:
- I am schizophrenic. In a sense.
- Obsessive compulsive, and you don't even know the half of it
- Music, in general, is who I am. I have a broad and strong taste for all kinds, depending.
- I am short. The midget of the "clique" I hang out with.
- Nonsensical and whimsical. That's me in three words.
- I often stutter and mis up my words when I get worked up.
- I LOVE LEARNING NEW WORDS. XD


7 things to do before I die:
- Go to Japan, Hong Kong, London, and New York with Wingy ^___^
- Have a homosexual guy for a best friend.
- Meet Depeche Mode
- Bungee jump. Or, at the very least, sky dive. XD
- Travel to another world and meet new (and friendly) lifeforms. (Not to mention intelligent. There's none of that here.)
- Publish some of our stories, however immature and ill-conceived they may be. XDDD
- ....Learn how to use Adobe 6.0 properly.

And another thing: "Stop!" ....*snerk*...Gen-chan. XD

Now I must transcribe a helluva lot of pages. ^___^ Semi-isolation IS VERY GOOD for me indeed, ja?

cs: "Hardcore Symphony" by Digital Explosion

I have to give a little credit: this Dragon Ball Z site is actually kinda nice. o_x So I still harbor some affection for that overrated series. Oh well. It was my "gateway anime." Without it, I wouldn't here right now. Seriously. ^^;;

Anyway, back to the important stuff: ANCHOVIES. XD~ There's nothing like eating anchovies when you know you've helped prepare them. They just taste that much better. Seriously. Eat some. Don't eat them raw, though. o_x Bleck.

New artist: Void Main. Download "Penguin Planet." It's good, and it's dedicated to Tux. ^^;;

cs: "Hello World" by Void Main
Happy hardcore... XD

Largo, oh Largo, you silly thing...

I'm sure just spending time with Julia will help her realize how you feel about her, and even if she doesn't feel the same way about you, at least you're not at home alone feeling like a losery schmuck, like some of us do. ^^ So cheer up, chumly.

Ooh, ooh, congrats! What kind of motorcycle will she be driving? *crosses her fingers and prays for an answer containing the word Goldwing* I love riding motorcycles. XD I even have my own leather chaps, leather jacket, and Harley Davidson boots, however sacrilegious to our '86 Goldwing they may be. XD

Welcome back, Zeruely. ^___^

*is downloading the Fuuma song* :P

We broke it down in DDR yesterday. ^^ Needless to say, we couldn't do Standard very well; once was too much of an embarrassment, however much fun it was to hop around trying to hit all of them in time. XD Beginner is a bit better; I need more practice. My mom has agreed to go hunting for a DDR game and mat so Gen-chan and I can play on it all we want. >=D

We also stopped by Mystical Wonders and bought some incense. Gen-chan, you already have too many candles, slow it down. We also some some really droolable swords and daggers and such. XD Oh man... Too bad I didn't win that Swords Online contest. >.<# Oh well; my room supposedly smells like the Temples in India. ^_^;; I'm finally putting to good use that dolphin incense burner Gen-chan gave me for Christmas. XD

Forgive me if I indulge my very interesting dream. XD It consisted of myself, Gen-chan, Zeruel, and Ernie from little.yellow.different breaking out some cool moves on DDR. Even though I have no idea what Zeruel looks like, and Ernie doesn't even know we exist. My subconscious mind just creates them out of people I already know, sorta like mixing them with various people's faces until I get someone who looks entirely different but vaguely familiar. o.o;;

What an odd dream, neh? ^___^;;

...Christoph's gonna go to SakuraCon next year and spend $5,000 on anime stuff. 0_0 I told him he better buy me something, or face The Wrath of Pam©. ^^

BTW, Gen-chan and I won't be here from Tuesday through Friday/Saturday. I'm going camping with her family up at Sol Duc. The hot springs are smelly, but to die for. XD

So nobody has any comments on the Kotori skin? ¬.¬

con't repeating: "Nitrogen" by II Future
This song positively SCREAMS car commerical. Go download it. Not a member of MP3.com? Sign up now!

Yes, those Dead Hands were creepy. 0_X Gah. The way they held you as the monster bit repeatedly at you... *falls onto the floor twitching and shuddering* >.<

*sigh* Gen-chan and I are supposed to be breaking down some super smooth moves on DDR right now, but apparently there have been minor setbacks in getting a ride, so I'll be here yet another hour. No matter. It means I can crack my knuckles and get backing to writing. ^^ BTW, I still think we should do it. The thought of Hy and Py in their own silly little world is just too amusing. XD

BTW, I did find some killer guitar sounds without lyrical content. ^^ My dream has come true.

cs: "Straight Circle" by Echosilence

Rinoa naked
miko lee
"mp3" "u2" "in god's coun
vituperation
my kid is an honor studen
"depeche mode" erasure sn
lead zepplin
erasure snowing
blur layouts

....Neh?

One thing that really annoys my dad is when I suddenly leap out of my chair, dash over to the stairs, run up to my room, retrieve a stuffed animal, and then bring it back to the computer. He wants to know why I do that. I tell him I time myself. XD I have four stuffed animals here with me: Code, Dolly, Daquiri, and Pikachu (which has been exiled to the top shelf of the desk, not like the others, which rest on the little perch by the keyboard).

cs: "Sharp Dressed Man" by ZZ Top
Top coat / Top hat / I don't worry / Cuz my wallet's fat

@____@ Sleep... need more....

It must be the caffeine. x.x

Crud, this is beginning to irk me. >.< Um... Hick Billy. I don't know.

Hydro: Think Marilyn Manson.
Pam: x.x Maybe I need to try some of your drugs afore I'll think of something intelligible. I thought "hell bound" would have been the best choice, but it's not...
Hydro: H*** B**** .... Hmm...
Pam: x.x Durnit.

Agh... I know. @___@ No matter how many times I play this game, it alway seems like I mess up in the Water Temple. I hate that temple. You'd think I like it since my Elemental is Water, but noooo. They made the Water Temple be the most annoying temple in the game. >.<## My favorite temple is the Fire Temple. ^.^ 'Cos Volvagia is my favorite boss. C'mon, who doesn't like boppin' subterrenean lava dragons on the head with a BIG BOOM hammer? XDDDDD

But I don't feel like playing it anymore. All I have left is the Shadow Temple, and that temple's kinda creepy, but that's not why. I don't want to beat the game. X____X Drats. I wish it were longer. I'd like to get Majora's Mask for the sole purpose of finding out the reactions of the Kokiri when/if Link goes back into the Kokiri Forest. o.o I got annoyed when I was Adult Link and they all kept saying, "I wonder if Link'll ever come back..." I AM LINK, FOO'! >.< Oh well. Maybe I'll get the game eventually. ^^ It just doesn't look like anything to rave about, really.

Now I must go and download more songs, despite the fact that Gen-chan and I were both on Downloading Frenzies last night. ^^ Much exchanges of "Ooh, get this song!" Or "Bassic's Elemental is really good!" XD XD

cs: "Warm Fuzzy" by The Cynic Project

DDR tomorrow, DDR tomorrow! XD My restless dancing spirit longs to boogie down!

Hydro: *dazedly* Eh?
Pam: Still high off them drugs, neh?
Hydro: x___x;;
Pam: Well, don't worry. Gen-chan and I will arrange the marriage for you. Only problem is, Icchan sez they only allow this kind of marriage in Vermont. ^______^
Hydro: O_O
Pam: Don't worry; we'll pay. We want you and Pyre to be VERY happy together. ^__^
Hydro: *quickly downs more drugs*
Pam: There's a good boy.

cs: "Transfiguration [Evolution Edit]" by Aura

OH MY GAWD.

Gen-chan, do it. And definitely; Virtuoso would make a very good bitch; after all, he's untamed. XD

cs: "Trancehopper" by II Future

It's me, OZ. You know the happy drill. ^____^

Seriously, Gen-chan, let's go for it. I'm sure these people would absolutely LOVE to see Pyre and Hydro together in a comic. ^_~;;

Hydro: ¬¬ Sick, sick little bastards.
Pam: Ahem, bitches, but we prefer "freaks." It's a bit more open-minded. ^_^

cs: "Tranquility Bass [Part II]" by Bassic
Killer sounds and this guy is hot. XD

Argh. Only the Shadow Temple is left for me to beat. ;__; Why did The Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time have to be so short? *sob*

cs: "All The Small Things" by blink-182
Say it ain't so / I will not go / Turn the lights off / Carry me home

Christoph invited me to play D&D. I have until tomorrow noon to go over to his house to game. ^^ I think I might take him up on that offer, if possible. After all, Lance the Elven Ranger has yet to "come out of the closet." Oh, won't Lawrence have so much fun teasing my poor character... XD

*ROTFL* You're not going to draw anymore just because you stole Hydro's hair?

Hydro: XD My hair is cool, that's why. *whips out a mirror to admire himself*
Pam: WASH.
Hydro: o.o??
Pam: Women Against Stupid Hydro.
Hydro: ¬¬#

cs: "Starlight" by Spaeth

BTW, Icchan, I did read Fallen Angels. ^^ I forgot to mention that on my blogger. I started it Tuesday and finished it Thursday. And you were right, it IS funny. XD

cs: "He Got The Wrong Foot Amputated" by Bob Rivers
Don't wanna hear no excuses / It's already too late / Don't try to say I got a two-for-one sale / A woman that I know went through a similar fate

Sure! *thinks* Hate blood! XD Sorry. ^^;; Bad guess.

Charm her with your glib remarks and witty jokes.

Your mom and my mom must be joined at the waist. She wants to go with your family to Sol Duc, too, and today they went clamming. Oy vey. She wanted me to come along, but the only reason is 'cos she wants more clams. Ò_Ó But I didn't go. Bwahahaha!

Agh, I'm tired. @____@ Nothing like a hot shower to soothe a crick in the neck, but my head's about to tip over from the weight of this towel.

cs: "Abandon" by Fallout Shelter no. 028
Dig that piano bit, yo.

...I lied, Gen-chan. ^^

cs: "Tsunami" by Prozzac
And like a killer tidal wave / She washed my heart away / And now I'll never be free

I want to play Zelda now. *hands start shaking* I can almost feel myself holding the Biggoron Sword, swiping at enemies. I can feel the wind as I ride around on Epona and shoot down Poes.... Oh.... the agony of withdrawal....

Hydro: Harumph.
Pam: You're just jealous 'cos I think Link is cuter than you.
Hydro: ¬_¬# Am not.
Pam: Are too.
Hydro: Am not.
Pam: Are too, are too, are too!
Hydro: Am not, am not, am not!
Pam: XD Give it up, home boy. You're positively green with envy. *huggles Link*
Link: ....
Hydro: *glowers at Link* One wrong move buddy, and you'll need all the fairies in the world to revive you.
Link: @__@??? (What did I do to deserve this?)
Pam: Bwah. We must go and fight the evil Gerudo now. They cannot have you, Link! Bwahahahaha!
Link: (All the Amazonian ninja women I could want, and I get stuck with this short Asian chick.)

cs: "The Last Supper" from Jesus Christ Superstar
What's that in the bread / That's gone to my head / Til this evening is this morning / Life is fine...

Drats. If I had thought of it, I would have hooked up my N64 to ol' Zule here and got some screenshots of me playing Whack-A-Mole with a subterranean lava dragon. ^^

Hell bound?

Hydro: XD *glomps back*

Smooooooke.... on the waaaaterrrrr..... Fire in the sky! XD

Bad Volvagia! I told you not to eat the entire Goron race! *BONG BOOM!*

*RAOWR!!!!*

Bad! *BONG BOOM* BAD!

...Say, that's not animal abuse, is it? XD

cs: "Smoke on the Water" by Deep Purple

*sings heartily* So you are the Christ, you're the Great Jesus Christ... prove to me that you're no fool... walk across my swimming pool...! XD

I stayed up 'til about 1:30 AM last night playing The Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time. I can't even begin to tell you how many times I've made new files and beat that game, very thoroughly. But it's been what, 8 or 9 months since I last played? XD Anyway, I'm already an adult and have beaten the Forest Temple. I'm working on getting the Eye of Truth right now. @__@ I stopped for a while 'cos the Bottom of the Well is creepy, man.

What I love about Zelda...
1) The chickens. Awww yeah. Personal hang-gliders. Attack them, and you'd better run for the nearest building, or prepare to deal with a flurry of angry feathered foes. XD
2) ....Lon Lon milk. Keep your original bottle, go into the Temple of Time, and wait SEVEN YEARs. Mmm mmm, fresh milk! *ROTFL* XD XD XD
3) Hee hee. Now that I'm home alone, I can run around and scream "Look at me, I get to save Hyrule in a skirt! BWAHAHAHAHA!" XD XD
4) Happy Mask Shop. *snerkgiggle*

What I dislike about Zelda...
1) Orooo.... the Shadow Temple and the Bottom of the Well... @___@ The blood and bones and creepy music makes me paranoid.
2) Lousy rotten chickens nearly killed me. ~_~
3) Overpriced Magic Beans.
4) The fish pond. @_@ I like it, but the fish are so darned hard to catch, doncha know!

Favorite Boss
1) Volvagia: It's enough to remind anyone of Whack-A-Mole or something similar. XD "Bad dragon!" *BONG BOOM!*
2) Phantom Ganon: When I first played, he was the hardest boss. @___@ And he's the first boss!
3) The Twin Witches: They're hilarious.

Least Favorite Boss
1) The Water Temple Boss: It reminds me of Jell-o. @__@
2) Bongo Bongo: The boss of the creepy evil Shadow Temple tries to kill you by playing drums? ¬.¬#
3) Ganondorf (and GANON): One word. Easy.

Bwah. If anyone else think Link is absolutely adorable, raise your hand! *both hands shoot up* XD

You're a loser? *scoffs* A loser is someone like myself. I think, after I finish playing Zelda, I'll need to visit a rehab clinic. Link is just so frickin' cool, man.

OK, I should stop ranting now. ^^;; Sorry if I don't reply. I'm going to be detained for the next day or so. And all because I couldn't find Super Smash Bros. I would have rather kicked some pixelated butt in that game (and Link's in it too! Wai!), but I CAN'T FIND IT. @___@ I tore apart my room looking for it. Oh well; at least I found my inflatable alien doll. XD

cs: "Zelda3 Kakariko Rave Party" by Zeratul
WAI.

First off, I'd like to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Zeruely-kun. ^.^ Enjoy.

Secondly, SUMMER VACATION.

...'Nuff said.

There's never enough Zell anywhere. *sniffle* ;__;

Purple belt, schmurple belt. I was orange. *big grin* Purple belt isn't too much to sing about; you only really start learning the cool stuff around green belt. o.O;

*snerk* Exacerbation. My 8th grade class got a kick out of that word. Mr. Jones was a very cool teacher; cynical but cool. He let me borrow Stephen King books. XD

Okay, I haven't heard from you for two days. TWO DAYS. Where did you go? ;_; Evil Plan #3 cannot commence without you, oh Old One.

I signed up. ^^ Shoot, if I can't go to the stars and planets myself one day, maybe a part of me will.

Noooo..... Not my spiffy schlongin' friend.... x.x; *sigh* Fond memories. Well, anyway, I decided not to go to the party, since we already made plans to go to the B&I and play Dance Dance Revolution. You game?

Hydro: Well, it's begun. Summer. That dreaded word that us parents have to think about. XP Kids at home.
Pam: Hush, you. You live in a COR base. You're lucky as all hell.
Hydro: I know. ^__^

Now you have to believe me when I say I'm mahvellous. Do you know why? *leer* Today I asked Mr. Williams what would be the lowest score that I could get on the Chapter Six Final and keep my A, and he tried out several scores on his computer. I could fail this test with a 45% and STILL have a solid A. Now, you tell me who's the best. XD

Of course, I don't quite think I'll get a 45% anyway. XD

Motorcycle meeting tonight, for me and my dad, if my mom doesn't come home in time. Which she probably won't; she doesn't like the motorcycle. Sucks to be her.

cs: "War" by Edwin Starr
War! / Huah! / Yeah! / What is it good for? / Absolutely nothing! / Say it again, y'all!

Aw, shucks, 'tain't nothing. If I bother him enough, I usually get what I want. ^^;; He spoils me, but I try not to take advantage of it too much; besides, I deserve to sleep in. ^o^

*screams like a rabid fangirl* WAI! Unsteady's back! *dances around madly* FINALLY! *hug* Where have you been, young man?! Ò_Ó The miko is about to open up a can of whoop-ass on ya if you don't explain yourself smartly! Other than that, I'm very sorry to hear about what happened between you and your friend.

cs: "Velcro Fly" by ZZ Top
You need just enough / Of that sticky stuff / To hold the seams / On your fine blue jeans

george thoroughgood+lyric
Depeche Mode lyric snowin
Limp Bizkit lmao mp3
erasure depeche boys snow
David Gahan tattoo

*sigh* I can understand how people would confuse the lead singer for Color Theory with Martin Gore, but... >.<# Mislabeled songs go too far sometimes.

BTW, we saw the MOST BEAUTIFUL HARLEY DAVIDSON today at the Commissary. It was blue and black and chrome... oh, man it was SWEET... XD~ *drools* If I didn't dislike Harleys, I'd get one like it. But alas, I prefer Goldwings. Comfort is everything, you know. I'm not gonna pay anywhere from $15,000 and up just for a machine that's loud and vibrates. And don't even go there, you nasty people. XP

Hydro: Oh, your shit don't smell sweeter than theirs, so hush ya, child.
Pam: I never said it did, you Wonder-mop.
Hydro: *scoffs indignantly* Moi? Wonder-mop? I think not!
Pam: Oh, don't get on your high horse, Mister.
Hydro: And what's your obsession with motorcycles? You're not even old enough to drive yet!
Pam: Well, you know... they're cool... plus it's a much better hobby than doing drugs or having sex. XP
Hydro: What's wrong with having sex?
Pam: .......... ¬¬# Note to self; never mention sex in front of a "white" 35-year-old male that inhabits my mind again.
Hydro: You're silly. ^__^
Pam: *sigh* Go away, you h0m053xu4l h4xx0r type. XD
Hydro: *pointedly* That's offensive.
Pam: Well, you know, you're just a figment of my imagination, so no harm there. XP

Lead poisoning in Massachusetts children under 6 years of age from 1985-1990 can be modeled by f(t) = 0.3(t)² - 53.8(t) + 2415, where f(t) is the number of cases found per 1000 people and t = 85 represents 1985. Using this model, about how many cases per 1000 were found in 1990? (round up to the nearest case).

...Well, when I plugged in 85, I got 9.5, which rounds up to 10. And when I plugged in 90 for t, I got three evenly. I don't know if I should add them or not, because at the beginning it states 1985 through 1990. o.O;; Since this is only a practice test, I'll ask Mr. Williams tomorrow before finals start, since he wasn't there yesterday or today, for that matter. >.<

Well, time to goof off. XD

cs: "Alien [2001 Remaster]" by Bassic

...Oh dear... Don't/Didn't like Tomb Raider? Power to ya.

Praise be to God, I got it right! ^O^ Thank you! I really only needed: (1,3), (2,0), (3,3) to form the V for the graph. You're wonderful. You're mahvellous. Thank you. ^__^

Nope, he didn't. Only one side. Oh well. Bwahaha. I feel like a million bucks. I'm thinking I did pretty good on it. Hopefully a B at the very least; it won't bring down my 97%. *throws head back and laughs heartily* And this time, I actually had the necesary stuff on my card. :D :D :D

*bounces around* NO SCHOOL FRIDAY FOR ME! WHEE! After arguing with my dad for about five minutes, I proved to him that we really don't need to go to school since nothing's planned for that day, anyway, and he said fine, we could stay home, so YAY. XD

Gosh, I been spelling names wrong. >.<;; I've been invited to Christoph's party Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. o.O It's a co-ed sleepover. Yeah. I'm not sleeping over, but I'll probably want to go. Or maybe not and just sleep all three days. XD But I won't sleep over at his house: co-ed sleepovers = BAAAAAD. And my parents would never let me, anyway. But I wouldn't on my own whims; I don't feel as though I'd be comfortable with a bunch of unrelated guys and girls sleeping in the same house (even if in different rooms). It's just... not kosher with me. :P

Only two cans of Dr. Pepper left. *swallows hard* May I survive tomorrow's math final. Pray for me? ^^;;

Well, I'm off to download and do all sorts of odd things. While killing off my enemies (die, Sioux, die, Spaniards!) in Civ2. Bwahahaha. XD

cs: "ETHEREAL CHAOS" by Digital Pump
Industrial Techno... ^__^

If I heard correctly, we're only allowed to use one side of a 3x5 notecard. o_x I hope you read this before tomorrow; otherwise he'll rip up your card and throw it away. At least that's what he told third period.

...I should study. x.x Last time I didn't study for the history finals and I got a B+. That's unacceptable.

See how my parents have twisted my mind. I am but lower than the dirt when I do not get an A.

cs: "I Feel Loved" by Depeche Mode
But through the pain and the suffering / Through the heartache and trembling / I feel loved

You shall enjoy this.

sex/skin
FFVIII mp3
nice lips
sims sex
depeche snowing
veggietales gifs
yaoi porno
+"mp3" +"bosson" +"we liv
snowing depeche from
depeche mode snowing

Anyone wanna help me graph this: f(x) = | 3x-6 |

C'mon, you guys are smart. Help a friend out, eh?

cs: "Tsunami" by Prozzak
I'm drowning in a wave of ecstacy / Tsu / Tsu / Tsu~nami

When it's finished, I want a copy. Bwahahaha. ^__^

Thanks for the well wishes, but I think I'm gonna need a whole convent of nuns praying for me night and day to pass my history and math exams. x.x; Oh, sure, I have straight A's now, but... wait until after Finals. Which start tomorrow. *clutches at chest dramatically* Our Father, who art in Heaven, hallowed be thy name, thy kingdom come, thy will be done...

I know exactly how you feel. Some days I feel like I don't need anybody in the world. And then the next day I feel like such an anti-social loser. Just something about me drives others away. It's most likely my blunt nature and my violent mood swings. Oh well. If I were you, I'd try not to be so negative. Women are fickle creatures, at best. Trust me; being one, I should know. >.<##

I am going to update Omino sometime today or tomorrow, and if I do, I'll let y'all know. I've coded Chapter 3 and finished The Authors page (I kept it very brisk and to the point, thank God.)

I really should get to work on his new fanfiction site, but right now I'm kinda torn between taking a shower, studying for the history finals, eating dinner, and surfing some more. Hmm. I wonder which one will win (unfortunately, I think you know which one it is, too).

Hydro: You're the kinda person that complains about having too much work, but you absolutely refuse to take a break.
Pam: o_o Moving onto new projects gives me a surge of energy and vitality.
Hydro: ...*backs away slowly* O....kay... I'm gonna go this... way.... now....
Pam: x.x Sorry. I dunno. Maybe I'm some kind of psychopathic workaholic attention-driven maniac.
Hydro: Maybe you are. The world may never know. You really should go get some rest. You're very tired right now.
Pam: Yes, I am. x.x No, there's too much to do and so little time...
Hydro: *glower* Concentrate on schoolwork. You can do the other schtick after school breaks for summer.
Pam: ...True dat. x.x I feel stupid, though. I pray to God I can pass my Algebra III final.
Hydro: I'm sure you will.
Pam: Hey, did I tell you? I received six awards for acedemic achievement today. ^.^ I could've gotten one for P.E. easily enough, but I didn't remember to apply. ^^;;
Hydro: *hug* That's great.
Pam: I got the highest possible award (for freshmen) for Honors English and Honors PNW History, but I did kinda badly in math, science, and health. Only Honorary Scholar Awards, not Distinguished Scholar. x.x *sigh*
Hydro: Some days you eat the bear, some days the bear eats you. (Quoted from The Girl Who Loved Tom Gordon)

cs: "Anticyclone" by Fallout Shelter no. 028

It is my bane that I should not get Nataku as my X/1999 character, but Satsuki instead. Perhaps it would seem odd if I was my own miko. XD I don't know. I'm in a very unstable frame of mind now.

Wait a minute. I got Satsuki. ...Does this mean I get to be the Creepy Computer Girl? x.x;;

OH WELL! XD

*belts out loudly in her annoying voice*

Domo arigato, Mr. Roboto,
Mata ah-oo hima de
Domo arigato, Mr. Roboto,
Hikitsu wo shiri tai!

cs: "Mr. Roboto" by Styx

*dances around* I'm hyper. I got to ride the motorcycle back from the band room. We had to play at the seniors' graduation. It wasn't too bad.

I hear voices... and they don't like you. ^ ° ^

Hydro: o.o; Murf?
Pam: Not you, silly.
Hydro: Oh, okay. ^_^

It truly is... the nectar of the gods.... XD~

*LOL* What a coincidence. We were watching the recent release of "Romeo and Juliet" today in English (you know, the one starring Leonardo DiCrappio). I was waiting for the end, you know, when he kills himself. Oh, and I'm sure Gen-chan's new favorite phrase will be "Will thou leave me so unsatisfied?" or something to that effect. XP

I LAUGH AT YOUR FEEBLE MORTALITY.

Hydro: ...Uh-HUH...
Pam: XD Just a random throw-in saying that nobody will get. Bwahahaha.

Ask Amber. She knows. o.o; She's obsessed with Costco (and yes Amber, I know you read this! XD ).

I am cool. Bow before me. XD Just kidding. Thanks for the anime, dudely. ^_^

It was sunny all weekend (well, for the part that I can remember *grin* ) and it's sunny now, and 'tis BYOOTIFUL outside, so nice that I want to go ridin' on the motorcy....cle. XD But sorry to hear your weekend was rainy. T___T This isn't normal western Washington weather we're having now. Usually summers are... rainy. o.O;; Thank you drought. -_-;

More randomness: It takes me two windows to be able to surf all of the blogs I read in a decent amount of time. o.O;; Thank you fast reading abilities, otherwise I'd be here all night. ^^;;

I knew today would be the day. XD XD XD You're welcome, Zeruely-kun. I'm glad you enjoy it.

O_O Spiffy.

Gah. I just remembered. The banner hanging in the Tacoma Dome said "Tacoma - All-America City."

...*clapclapclap* Thank you incompetency. What would the world be without you? Maybe the 'n' key broke or something. Hey, these things happen, right? -.-#

Four more days. *shiver twitch* Just four more days. I can make it. If I have... my Dr. Pepper. I can make it. XD

Hydro: *sighs and shakes head* Didn't you try to quit caffeine?
Pam: I realized the error of my ways and begged for forgiveness.
Hydro: *slaps forehead* What are we gonna do with you?
Pam: Make sure I get plenty of caffeine, lest the Dark Side of Pam doth emerge from the depths of her deprivation.
Hydro: Stop having fun with words.
Pam: I can't help it. XD I love vocabulary.
Hydro: -__x;;;

cs: "Dirt" by Depeche Mode
I said / Can you feel it / When you touch me?

And what's this? Anyone who likes Dr. Pepper has GOT to be cool, man. Bwahaha.

I should really get off right now, but why bother? I missed Futurama. I can still make The Simpsons. Oh well. I can still get in an hour of TV and then be able to say I'm not a total freak. ^^;; Gee... when was the last time I watched TV? (A movie doesn't count, specifically rented or owned ones.)

XD I love this song.

cs: "Sweet, Sweet Baby (MooMoo Mix)" by Erasure

Zeruely, I'm shocked. Yaoi queries? What have you been up to, young man? XD

I've given up on finding a copy of Erasure's "Truly, Madly, Deeply." There is only one person on WinMX that has it, and I've been in their queue for four hours now. x.x I still want it, though. Darn diddly arn.

Gar. I've worked on the Kotori skin. x.x Not too much, though. I don't feel like it.

Dammit, after thinking about it, the band has to go to the graduation ceremony all four years. >.<# That bites butt, man. I'm not lookin' forward to tomorrow. x.x No siree bob.

Stupid stupid poems. I hate you. >.< Homework is so lame.

cs: "The Matrix" by DarkUFO"
Inside the matrix / They are everyone / And they are no one

Oh, it's not the same. Okay. Makes sense now.

Truly, Madly, Deeply
(A. Bell / V. Clarke)

(Woah...oh, woah...oh)

How ever hard they tried to hold you back,
so you were stronger.
If there's a slightest fray of hope,
or glimmer in your eye.

Take another lover,
but I will get you in the end.
There will be no other lover, (take another lover)
I will say: "I love you."

Love me madly, truly, deeply (I love you...take another lover)
Love me madly, truly, deeply (woah)

Take another lover,
but I will get you in the end.
There will be no other lover, (take another lover)
I will say: "I love you."

Every night you live to satisfy
your pains of hunger.
But as if your name were written out
in lies across the sky.

Take another lover,
but I will get you in the end.
There will be no other lover, (take another lover)
I will say: "I love you."

Love me madly, truly, deeply (I love you...take another lover)
Love me madly, truly, deeply (woah)

Take another lover,
but I will get you in the end.
There will be no other lover, (take another lover)
I will say...

How ever hard they tried to hold you back,
so you were stronger.

Taking, no taking, taking, no taking,
taking, no taking, taking no lover.
Taking, no taking, taking, no taking,
taking, no taking, taking no lover.

*twitch twitch twich*

Erasure did "Truly, Madly, Deeply" ?!?!?!?!

*twitch twitch twitch*

Damn you, WinMX! Stop putting me back in the queues! I was first before him! *sob*

2001-06-08: 42
2001-06-09: 58
2001-06-10: 91
2001-06-11: 47
2001-06-12: 46
2001-06-13: 58
2001-06-14: 52

O.o You people must have really liked me then.

I'll never complain about getting out of school late again. We start sometime in the middle of September, or so I've heard. ^^;;

Ish okay. Some people can be cool when they get drunk. ^___^

That's the second time I've missed this Tomoyo layout. *glower* You time this perfectly.

Well, I debate whether or not I should tell you about my Wonderful Weekend or not. I feel kinda shallow upon reflection. But eh.

I went to Jim's (Jenny Marie, I call her Jim) slumber party. We (or at least, I) got all of three hours of sleep, making a grand total of seven hours of sleep, counting Thursday night and Friday night. We drank and ate until we were stuffed, then watched Little Nicky, At First Sight, and Pitch Black.

The next day she has a barbeque and NO ONE FROM OUR D&D CLUB SHOWS UP ('cept DeeDee, who had spent the night with us). >.< Lawrence is in for some MAJOR ass-KICKIN' (my leg is feeling ever so much better and rarin' to kick) on Monday.

Anyway, Trevor (the guy I had seen with the X shirt) and Levi (not just jeans anymore) show up, and then we decide to go and see Tomb Raider, which wasn't too bad, but overdone is some places. At least it was a lot like the game. Alex West was a hunk. Did not once hear U2's "Elevation."

Then, topping off the loveliest two days I've had in a long time, coming home in my father's truck we hear on the radio (on his beloved KZOK Classic Rock Station): "Whip me strip me make me bleed / Kinky sex is what I need."

...And that was my weekend. Oh, also throw in Jim's two twin brothers, Christopher and Jonathan, who were just... XD~~ I have this feeling I like Jonathan a lot more (he enjoyed binking me on the head with balloons).

And there you have it. I've prob'ly gained about five pounds, but eh. It was worth it.

Hydro: *taps foot* Oh really? Is that why you have a load of poetry homework and an Algebra III practice test to finish?
Pam: *gulp*
Hydro: I thought so. Plus Gen-chan sent you the Kotori skin, so you have to work on that, as well.
Pam: >.< And finish downloading the Erasure songs I never got a chance to download. Man, my internet has been REALLY crappy lately.
Hydro: Yes. We're sorry, old man; she was disconnected. >.<
Pam: X__X My back hurts.
Hydro: Poor baby.
Pam: I know. T__T

cs: "Breathe" by Depeche Mode
I hear a rumour / They travel far / You know what it's like / The way people are

New... album? and I heard... absolutely nothing of this?

And, might I add quite angrily, what purpose do peacocks serve as backyard pets? I do not understand why anyone would be delighted to keep two pet peacocks in their backyard and not even let them out of their 6x6x6 foot cage, for cryin' out loud. All they do is squawk in the morning, especially when I'm trying to sleep. >.<

My leg has this horrible, maddening itch. I want to take a comb and just scratch it as hard as I can. >.< I hate scabs. I hate them muchly.

cs: "Daybreak" by Fallout Shelter no. 028

D&D was never such a lame joke until today. We got stuck in a pit, and Elphadon (yes, that's the name of Cody's character) started singing to calm the monkeys holding large rocks. I think I'm scarred. What's even worse is that my character, Lance the Ranger (yes, let's all laugh at him now) also has a Singing Proficiency. x.x;; *starts singing* Monkey friends... why are you hurting me.... Monkey friends, please don't throw large rocks....

It was never so pointless. -.-# It sucks, 'cos Lawrence forgot the campaign notes he usually has and Mr. Williams wasn't there. So he went on instinct. Unfortunately, that "instinct" involved rock-throwing monkeys and a big gay man named Bubba. Oh dear. >.<;;

Today was utterly boring and nonsensical, I have the sudden urge to bash someone over the head. I'm feeling very violent and disgruntled.

But oh! ^^ I watched some Ranma OAVs that I got in the mail. :D Thanks old man! So today was not entirely at a loss.

It's already summer for you? T___T Lucky. We have to keep going to school 'til the 22nd.... D'oh....

Hydro: XD I know, I know.
Pam: Somehow, I think agreeing to let you become my Mental Companion was a big mistake.
Hydro: But I am cute. Admit it.
Pam: I will when you admit that you're a sweet, sensitive, and all-around nice guy.
Hydro: HAH! Don't make me laugh.
Pam: I thought not.

Unlike most people, there is no method to my madness. That's why it's called madness, but I guess, speaking mathemtically, even not having a pattern is considered a pattern, but I'm not going to spend the next three hours arguing with myself, so let's leave it at that.

Hydro: But no one else is home. Go on. It's fun to listen to you gripe and swear at yourself.
Pam: Ha ha ha. I'm not here for your amusement. You work for me, not the other way around. Now git.

And you know what? I'm short. Deal with it. Don't be bouncing basketballs over my head during P.E. and making into a game. "If you hit Pam you lose!" Not to mention any names.... *coughhack* *chokesputter*

...I'm gonna go argue with myself and drink my Orange Minute Maid/Dr. Pepper concoction.

cs: "Snowblind" by Styx
Now I'm snowblind / Can't without you / 'Cos you're so fine / I just can't get away

Hydro: Tru' dat. XD
Pam: Yo, Huhked On 'Bonics wuhked fo' me, brutha.

...I just remembered; I can't go to college after high school. Wingy and I are going to fly to Japan, Hong Kong, London, and then back home... Hey, may or may not happen, but it's good to dream.

Anyway, I was considering either somewhere in California, New York, or this state, Washington. All I know is I want out.

WAAAAAAAAIIIIIIII. XD XD XD

Hydro: I'm cute! She says I'm cute! XD XD XD
Pam: XD XD XD (Thinking: His ego's gonna inflate a LOT.)
Hydro: It's the hair, isn't it? *smooths out his hair* I knew it was.
Pam: *rolls eyes* You're such a lady killer, Hydro.
Hydro: I know. XD
Pam: ¬¬# Anyway.... I see no picture. ;__; It's not loading, Gen-chan.
Hydro: Murf?
Pam: Not her, the other one. Although this one's isn't loading, either.
Hydro: Which one?
Pam: This one's layout isn't loading.
Hydro: What about that one? Not loading either.
Pam: Not her, but hers isn't loading. She likes Pyre.
Hydro: *confused* There's two of 'em? o.O *scratches head*
Pam: -.-# You'd think he might have figured it out, but nooo....
Hydro: XP
Pam: Some people are just self-absorbed.
Hydro: *scoffs* Moi? Lovely l'il me, self-absorbed?
Pam: XP Exunctly.
Hydro: ¬¬ Don't use your Dahl Speak on me.
Pam: j00 d34d f00. XD Ph33r no b33r!
Hydro: O.o;;

I have developed a fondness amounting to obsession for killer electric guitar riffs. Please, if you know any long instrumental songs with rockin' electric guitar riffs.... TELL ME. Please? Thanks. ^^

My layout loads because Hydro is cute. That's why. ^____^;; If you want, just move your images into my account. Maybe your account got messed up. o.O

Whoo, that's another blog for today. I've been blogging less. That's a good thing. See, I blog too much about nonsensical things that no one reads anything. I bet you're skipping over this right now. XD That's OK; I admit my ramblings are a waste of space. That's pretty obvious. I'd have to be really dense not to know that. :P Duh.

Hydro: So stop stating the obvious and shut up. I'm cute! XD
Pam: *gives in at last* Much cuter than Kamui, although not as pretty. =D
Hydro: If I were as pretty as Kamui, I wouldn't exactly be a man anymore. o.O
Pam: Touché. XD
Hydro: XD

cs: "Always (Trance Mix)" by Erasure
Always / I wanna be with you / And make-believe with you

This is a cute blog. XD Thank you very much, oh Mr. Roboto, for doing the jobs, that nobody wants to....

ANYway, I suppose it's time for an "official report." Bwahaha?

I had a WONDERFUL day today, aside from the fact that everytime someone said something, I always managed to find a song to correlate with it. >XD I'm evil, I know; it bugs people that I can do that, but I think it's hilarious. I'm oversteppin' the boundary into annoying. ^O^

I received an A on my Algebra III test. It was pretty frickin' hard. @__@ Oh well. I can't wait for tomorrow. Why? We have a late arrival to school so the teachers can discuss the Gates-Millennium Grant and the construction of the new school. Plus I have my Dungeons & Dragons meeting after school, and we're kickin' butt on our new campaign. =D

I can't wait. School's out in about a week and a day. >.< We're one of the last people to get out. That sucks. Oh well.

Vote for the "Master and Servant (Modeness Mix)"! O ° O

Hydro: Well, it's nice to know that you're all happy and joyful, but SOME of us are still depressed and moody. *COUGHHACK*
Pam: ....Sorry... T__T I'll write soon.
Hydro: Thank you.
Pam: But I've started playing The Sims again, and I completely forgot all about the Headless Horseman.... >=)
Hydro: *falls to knees and begins praying* Dear God, please don't let her get sucked into that void again. Amen.
Pam: XD
Hydro: Seriously, though... PLEASE WRITE. ;___;
Pam: Shuddap and go read. :P
Hydro: ....Okay.
Pam: Bwah, that was easy enough.

cs: "Dirt" by Depeche Mode
Mmm / I've been dirt / And I don't care

It's OK, your blog is fun to read. XD

Hydro: Nous sommes sands défense. XD Nahn-teen.
Pam: ¬¬ (Thinking: I shouldn't have let him borrow Dreamcatcher.)

BWAHAHAHA. XD I'd be on the lookout for a package from Amazon.com in about a week. ^__~ Tee hee. And check your inbox. Crappy skin sent your way. *bows humbly* BTW, kudos on the new layout. =D

I'm sure it'll look MAHVELLOUS. XD XD XD *recalls her Pretty in Pink Sephiroth layout with much happiness* We appreciate your gift skin already. ^___^

Well, the D&D Meeting went really well today. My character, Lance, almost died, but didn't, plus I killed a drou(sp?) and a nekkid guard that was half-asleep, but I'm cool like that. ^__^ But they keep calling me a girl. ¬¬ And our fourteen-year-old cleric-in-training likes giving my character hugs. But it's OK; I think the DM isn't intent on killing me. XD That is VERY good. Plus, we split up into two separate groups, so that it'd be easier to game without as many people (them people be rowdy), so we DID get stuff done, and it wasn't all slanderous inside jokes (The name "Lance" has struck their funny bone; Jim told me to say that name was given to me by "a very special friend *wink wink*").

Well, I gotta go. New backpack to be had. ^___^

cs: "Sea of Sin (Blue Enya Remix)" by Depeche Mode
It gets better and better / As it gets wetter and wetter

FRICKIN'-A, man. @_@ Dumb stupid 300-meter run damn near tore my leg in two. It really hurts very very very badly right now, and my brother's an asshole. Nothin' new. *shrugs*

Hydro and Pam: *waves back*

Hydro: If you're really that tired, you should sleep.
Pam: No.-.-
Hydro: o.o Not even a little nap?
Pam: No. -.- Must work. *whip cracks*
Hydro: @__@;;
Pam: Urgh.

Nyahahahahahaha. *gigglesnerk* I must say, this site is REALLY lame. I almost expect to read "Bow before me, bitches, for I AM GOD" somewhere on your "dope skinZ page." And be expecting some stuff in your inbox sometime tonight or tomorrow; I have much button clickin' to do today. >;D

I am so tired. Tired tired tired.

Oh, speaking of which, we have begun a new campaign with new characters today in D&D, since we had a "T-Bird Day" to do whatever we want with the last four periods. I'm an Elven Ranger again (the name is Lance), but this time Jim is my twin sister (her elf's name is Calisandra). I've been thinking about tellin' 'em all that Lance is gay, but then that might make Lawrence want to kill me (as a DM he's good, but piss him off and you're gonna be one sorry idiot), and I have no intention of dying before I even reach Level 2. ^^;;

Pam: I want more sandwich bread. o.o My daddy bought this special long loaf/baguette type thing, and it tastes good just eating it plain. But he says if I don't put something else on there, Social Services will be after him for child negligence.
Hydro: *LOL* XD Well, put some peanut butter or something on it.
Pam: Ick, no. >.< Bread is yummy by itself.
Hydro: Have some "Napolean" ice cream, then. XD
Pam: ¬¬ I was five. Gimme a break, I'm smart, but I ain't a genius. It says "Neopolitan."
Hydro: XD Napolean ice cream, taking over the world one country at a time.
Pam: *sigh*

Hee hee hee! XD Those "Wang" guys from Penny-Arcade are there!

I'm confused. x.x I haven't been reading The Ultimate Hitchhiker's Guide for a while, so when I started it up again last night (I'm on Young Zaphod Plays It Safe), I was very confused. x.x I may have to start all the way at the beginning again. "We apologize for the inconvenience."

*sigh* My life is very very very boring and stupid. T___T

cs: "Lift Your Head Up High (And Blow Your Brains Out)" by the Bloodhound Gang
So throw in the towel / 'Cuz your life ain't shit / No take the towel / And hang yourself with it

ZERUELY GIGGLED!

XD XD XD OK, now I'll get you something else. I was going to buy that Japanese Tattoo book, but I wasn't sure if someone else was gonna buy it, but now I know, so I'll get you something equally spinky on your list. I have $27. >=)

Hydro: SHHHH! *clamps hand over mouth* You want we should give the game away?
Pam: ¬.¬# O.... kay....

I was awake. Those damn peacocks. @___@ Didn't feel anything.

I've had a boring day. Watched Gladiator again, downloaded four songs off WinMX (which is a lot worse than Napster, but at least there ain't no restrictions yet). *yawn* It's been a sedentary day. ~__~

cs: "Bizarre Love Triangle Remix" by Depeche Mode and New Order

Meh. x.x I tinkered around with the old fart's layout for his Pitas account, but it looks too complicated right now, mostly due to the fact that I'm overly caffeinated and Dr. Pepper'd, prolly. x.x Dr. Pepper drink and jelly beans; not recommended for keeping what shreads of sanity you may have.

Plus, Virtue.Nu's down right now; I try to login and it gives me an error message. o.O

I want to do something. Taking over the world is so overrated, and I don't feel like writing.

cs: "I'll Bet He Was Cool" by Savage Garden
I talk about silly things / I like to talk about Jesus Christ / 'Cos I wonder what would happen / If He passed you by

Updated both.

OK, now check out the wallpaper. ^^;; It's the FFVII one at the bottom.

...I think my right mouse button is dead. ~_~

cs: "Voices" by Disturbed
Wake up / Are you alive? / Listen to me / I'm gonna talk about some freaky shit now

>O< *yawns*

^^; Thanks, Wingy.

Well, it's not that I don't like Depeche Mode's new style, I just wish they didn't change it too much. I mean, the CD is great, but I like their more upbeat, non-love songs, like "Personal Jesus" and "What's Your Name?" Those were some kickin' songs. And I hate how they get so little recognition. Even the 80s radio station that I listen to didn't make a peep about it, but it was such a big deal when U2's new CD came out. ¬_¬ Oh well; David Gahan is huggable. ^___^

XD XD XD LOOKY, HYDRO! You're getting some recognition! *points wildly at the links section* WOOHOO!

Hydro: XD Yes! I told you I was the best! Now you have to believe it!
Pam: XD And that new layout is very cool. XD
Hydro: *l33rs* ph33r |\/|3!!!
Pam: *ROTFLMAO*

There's always time for a Drunk Babbling. XD Hopefully I'll be getting Evil Plan #2 going today, if I can get my dad to let me borrow his credit card. ^_~

*ROTFLMAO* XD I remember when you locked him and me outside when I spent the night that one time. -.-# Of course I wasn't happy about it. XVII! ^o^ I'm so intelligent. *puffs out chest* I came up with the name. =D (Had to add that; makes me feel impawtant!)

I'm going to update Omino and the Temp. CC dot Net today, so keep yer peepers peeled. XD

cs: "Bohemian Rhapsody" by ACOUSTIC RESCUE.

There. How's that, Icchan? It's easier for me, too, although it took a while to find appropriate colours. >.<

cs: "Starlight" by Spaeth

My recommended book: Magical Pokemon Journey: How Do You Do, Pikachu?

Too bad the link's not working. XP

cs: "I Am The Walrus" by John Lennon
I am the eggman / They are the eggmen / I am the walrus / Koo Koo Ka Chu

My archives are fixed. Bwahahahaha. Excuse the lack of layout there. Meh.

ph33r me. I have Dr. Pepper icy slush (left it in the freezer for about 6-7 hours, that's what you get without it exploding...) and Dr. Pepper jelly beans. I saw them at the commissary, and thought I died and went to heaven. XD XD XD

Hydro: Pepsi's better. :P
Pam: Nuh-uh.
Hydro: Uh-huh.
Pam: Nuh-uh.
Phoenix: I'm a sexy little bitch. XD
Pam: Nuh-uh.
Hydro: Uh-huh.
Phoenix: o.O;; Coming from my uncle, that ain't right.
Pam: XD Uh-huh!
Hydro: ¬¬##

cs: "Alien [2001 Remaster]" by Bassic

Never mind. The links below don't work. I'll update the temporary CC dot Net tomorrow. I was at Gen-chan's house; we went shopping. I bought Jim her present and a card; and now I have enough to pay for Zeruel's birthday present, too! :D Maybe, since I now have $27 instead of $16, I can buy him something better. ^.^ Bwahahahaha....

I'm so lovin' this layout. XD Props to Gen-chan, my home-girl. Yo. XDDDD Let's get Pyre up, too!

Hydro: XD I look so cool.
Pam: XD I look so cool.
Hydro: XD
Pam: XD

Expect a lot of XD 's today. XD

cs: "Teenage Wasteland" by The Who

Well, here's the wallpaper I was working on for the temporary Crispy Crunchy dot Net... I'll update the site later... ^^;;

cs: "Cold War" by Styx
'Cause time has a way / Of bringing even mountains down / Down / Down

I think there was prob'ly a song made for your mugger, Reinselft-san.... It's so lovingly titled "I Hope You Die."

"Fiction (Dreams in Digital)" always reminded me of Satsuki, but hey, evil Hinoto anyday, Bird. ^^

After much debate, Hydro and I chose the second one. ^.^ Metallic would be fine, Dora-chan.

Well, I never got the directions to the banquet. XP

Well, Icchan, on Thursday during P.E. we had a class competition, the Cross Country Mile. So we're all at the start line, and then Mr. Swofford blows the whistle and we begin to run, and I run at a sort of medium, not all out pace and before I even get a third of the track, I move into the first lane, trip, and hold my arms out to stop me from smashing my face into the ground as I crash into the ground and scrape up my shin really badly and screw up my knees. Some people tripped over me (Gen-chan nearly stepped on my head), but they all continue running. I can't, since I'm bleeding and have rocks in my knees, so I pull myself over to the grass, then Mrs. Holt comes over and then we get it bandaged after the competition. It still hurts. >.< I can't bend my left knee worth crap, and my right knee won't bend all the way.

Results from that Color Quiz, the link came courtesy of Elwen-san.

Not only considers her demands minimal, but also regards them as imperative. Sticks to them stubbornly and will concede nothing.

Eager to make a good impression, but worried and doubtful about the likelihood of succeeding. Feels that she has a right to anything she might hope for, and becomes helpless and distressed when circumstances go against her. Finds the mere possibility of failure most upsetting and this can even lead to nervous prostration. Sees herself as a 'victim' who has been misled and abused, mistakes this dramatization for reality and tries to convince herself that her failure to achieve standing and recognition is the fault of others.

Willing to participate and to allow herself to become involved, but tries to fend off conflict and disturbance in order to reduce tension. Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense. Able to obtain physical satisfaction from sexual activity but tends to hold aloof emotionally.

Desires a tranquil, peaceful state of harmony offering quiet contentment and a sense of belonging.

Disappointment at the non-fulfillment of her hopes and the fear that to formulate fresh goals will only lead to further setbacks have resulted in considerable anxiety. She is trying to escape from this into a peaceful and harmonious relationship, protecting her from dissatisfaction and lack of appreciation.

Depleted vitality has created an intolerance for any further stimulation, or demands on her resources. A feeling of powerlessness subjects her to agitation and acute distress. Tries to escape from this by relinquishing the struggle, and by finding peaceful and restful conditions in which to recuperate in an atmosphere of affection and security.

o.O Unfortunately, I have to admit the majority of it is true, except I don't really believe that I'm a ' victim ', I don't consider myself egocentric (I know my faults and harp rather well on them), and I don't attain satisfaction from sexual activity and I'm not aloof with my emotions (you could say the two are sorta switched around). So there. XP

Lawrence (I have been spelling if name wrong. May he forgive me.): Yeah, when you go to the meeting, tell them we're an evil cult and we're brainwashing other students.
Kristov: And don't forget to tell them we worship Satan!
Pam: -.-# O....kay....

Well, it didn't really go bad, but not that great. At least we've got our club charter now, and we're going to be getting an account number for our funds on Monday or Tuesday. Mr. Williams and I also talked about holding some meetings at my house over the summer, or even going outside to parks or down to the waterfront and gaming there, since it would keep us outside, and we'd have more freedom and actually be able to act out what we were doing. ^___^ Sounds like fun, don't it? XD

And for those of you wondering where MAFBlad went, Gen-chan's been considering turning it into a blog for Pyre and Hydro. ^___^ So hound her and tell her to get on it. XD

I must go and find things to download, and then bug my dad to buy me ice cream. Otherwise I shall say "Nee!" at him. XD

cs: "The Best of Times" by Styx
--Another song I bummed off my dad, as well as their song "Babe" and The Bangles "Walk Like An Egyptian." My daddy's so cool. *leer*

My brother's friend came over. He was standing there at the door for a minute after I answered it, just looking at me. So finally I said, "Come in." And he replies, "Okay, that's what I was waiting for." And then I make a face. "What're you, a vampire?" He replies, making an ugly face, "Yeah, I am, and you're my next victim." And then he hugs me.

EW. That post below cursed me.

But it feels good to be posting nonsensical gibberish again. I'm sure you all missed it a lot. ^_____^

Hydro: That's for sure. *snort*
Pam: XD I know you're quite fond of me, Hydro.
Hydro: ¬¬# No.
Pam: XD Admit it.
Hydro: ¬¬## No.
Pam: Bwahaha. I'll get you to confess one of these days. I'm a replacement for your daughter, aren't I?
Hydro: ;___; I miss her so much.
Pam: ;__; I'm sorry. But we drew her name out of The Cup of Doom (tm), and she was One of the Chosen. *shrugs* Sorry....
Hydro: ¬.¬ Drawing names out of a cup. Gee. How professional.
Pam: Well, we try. XD

cs: "The Dead of Night (Moon Mix)" by Depeche Mode
We are the dead of night / We're in the zombie room / We're twilight's parasites / With self-inflicted wounds

*LMAO* If there was any guy willing to kiss the mess on my leg to make it feel better, let him step forth now. XD

SSSSSSSSSSSSTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Oh my GOD, the pain...... *whimpers and clenches fists* It HURTS and STINGS. OW OW OW OW OW.

X__X I'd rather have my dad perform an amputation than feel this. The stupid breeze is making it worse. It burns. My mom put ethyl alcohol and some cream stuff on it. At first, the only thing that hurt was taking off the bandages, but then it hurts when she pressed on it with the Q-Tip, but it also tickled a lot too. ^^;; So I was wincing and whimpering and giggling simultaneously. And now it FRICKIN' HURTS LIKE A BIZNITCH because of the GOSHDARN wind. AUGH.

I want ice cream. Maybe she'll buy me some.

cs: "Blue" by Eiffel 65
I'm blue / Da ba dee / Da ba di

I found my Civilization II: Gold Edition CD. :D I was wondering where it was. *leers evilly*

My dad downloaded the entire Monty Python and the Search for the Holy Grail movie in school today.

...I'm so jealous. v.v But at least he's gonna set up the network tomorrow, so's he can transfer a copy of the file to my computer. :D Happiness! XD I can't wait to watch it.

Well, I'm gonna go now. I must be killing those evil Celts and French now, bwahahahaha.... >=D

cs: "A Raindrop For Every Tear" by Elven

It's been a lovely past two days. I can barely walk, I sucked at the concert tonight, and I don't have directions to the band banquet. ^____^

But of course, this is ALL CANCELED OUT by the pure and simple fact of.... CAFFEINE. If Dr. Pepper is truly the nectar of the gods, then Sprite surely must be their piss. XD

Ooh, hooray! The gash on my left knee is pussing ever so nicely. It hurts to bend my leg; it hurts not to bend my leg because my leg is stiff from not being bent. The conclusion? Pamela is fucked. XD

Man. I don't keep up with blogs for a couple days and suddenly the world has moved on... o.O;;

Of course I love it, Dora-chan. There's gonna be nothing like starting up WinAmp and seeing Hydro give me that "bored yet amused" look. XD I can't wait.

Aww... the one you want most is something I can't afford... I'll find something else.

Hydro: *clamps hand over Pam's mouth* She's said too much. We have to go.
Pam: *muffled cursing as he drags her away*

cs: "Starlight" by Spaeth

BTW, there's a lovely new Depeche Mode mix up at Strange-Love, so do check it out. Their site is just spiffy like that.

Now excuse me while I limp up the stairs as best I can, and try not to kill myself in the process.

cs: "Depends" by blink-182
I don't wanna urinate on myself / I don't wanna urinate on anybody else

--Hydro: That's you all over.
--Pam: ...Shut up. ¬¬## Not true.
--Hydro: Only payback for making me cry.
--Pam: You're such a wimp. But you're a blue-haired wimp.
--Hydro: ...And that makes a difference?
--Pam: A whole world of it, dude.

*twitch* Ow. I fucked up my legs today when we were gonna run the cross-country mile competition. At the beginning of the race, I trip, fall, and fuck up both my knees and my shin. Not to mention the palm of my right hand. The blood made me feel queasy. I am never going to be a doctor. I have two bandages on my knees and my shin is throbbing painfully. Everytime I walk I can't bend my left leg (I fucked up the left leg really bad), and I can feel the wounds trying to heal, like some maddening itch. It stings, it hurts, and I can't even change my fucking clothes without biting my lip to pieces.

*twitch twitch* C... Ca.... Caff.... Caffeine.... *twitch* After a five day fast, at last... Sinning never tasted so good....

And I have to play at a concert tonight. FUCK. *screams in agony* I swear it; the wounds are bleeding again. Dammit.

...I am SUCH a loser. G'bye.

cs: "Stare Out The Window" by Color Theory
Back in my rebel phase / I stood out in all the normal ways.

I wonder what it would be like to take a razor and shave my eyes out. I don't think I could feel any worse than I do right now, plus I would be blissfully blessed with the loss of sight.

XD XD XD POST! POST POST POST. I would dearly LOVE to see it. :D

Murf. I should go and get some actual work done. *flutters off to the land of Writer's Block and Carpal Tunnel Syndrome*

cs:"Just Can't Get Enough [Live]" by Hysterika
And when it rains / You're shining down for me / And I just can't get enough

Murf. >.< This week looks extremely busy. Tomorrow, I stand in front of ASB concerning D&D, then I'm gonna watch the Project A-ko tapes that the old man sent me. Thursday I've got a dental appointment and must miss D&D, then a concert to perform at that night. Friday I have a band banquet to attend.

...I wish it was the weekend. x.x;;

Hydro's not here right now. Currently I am writing him having an emotional breakdown, so he'll be down and out for the count for a day or so.

And so will I. Busy. Man, I thought having a life would be cool. Now I wish I didn't. -_-##

cs: "Dolmen Ridge" by GNOMUSY
--Very, very nice. Go get some now. ^^ Reminds me of The Legend of Zelda. Get "Niru" and "Virtuality II."

I am not having a good day. Not even ten hours of sleep has cured my caffeine headache. I just got back from D&D. I'm not in a nearly civil enough mood to do anything right now. Consider me a public offense. -.-# We happened to be in a dungeon today that somehow happened to look like a male's reproduction organ(s). And of course, this just happened to create "new" catcalls and comments. Yay.

It's been a bad day.

cs: "Please" by Nine Inch Nails

-Last book you read: Ender's Shadow.

-Last movie you saw: Pearl Harbor.

-Last movie you saw on the big screen: Pearl Harbor.

-Last phone number you called: ...? Gen-chan's? o.O;; *can't remember using the phone in the last three days*

-Last show you watched on TV: The Simpsons. ^^;

-Last song you heard: "Boogie Woogie Bugle Boy" by The D's 3 >XD

-Last thing you had to drink: Barley tea. v.v

-Last time you showered: Last night. o.O

-Last thing you ate: Rice with tofu and anchovies. :D~


Do You....

1. Smoke? No, and I will never. ^__^

2. Do drugs? Only caffeine, and suffering from that withdrawal scares me from trying other drugs.

3. Have sex? Pam: No. -.-;; Hydro: Oh yeaaaah. XD

4. Sleep with stuffed animals? Well, I have a semi-life sized husky and tiger near my bed. ^^;;

5. Have a crush? Only one. XD Alex....

6. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Nope.

7. Have a dream that keeps coming back? All the time. @___@ Many of them.

8. Play an instrument? Flute and piano.

9. Believe there is life on other planets? Definitely. How could there not be?

10. Remember your first love? *sigh* Yes. v.v

11. Still love him/her? No, but I heard he's as hot as all hell now. o.O;;

12. Read the newspaper? I wish. We don't get it. x.x

13. Have any gay or lesbian friends? Man, if I had gay friends, don't you think I'd have better fashion sense? ~_~ My life is so deprived.

14. Believe in miracles? Well, miracles only happen to other people. There was that time I fell off the swing in 2nd grade and had to go to the hospital to check for brain damage, but it's my bane that I live. -_-#

15. Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever? o.O Don't ask me.

16. Consider yourself tolerant of others? Hell no. -_- Just as long as we're being honest, nobody's really tolerant with my intolerance.

17. Consider police a friend or foe? Hmm. Interesting question. The law is necessary, but sometimes the law sucks.

18. Like the taste of alcohol? No way. I threw up when I had some when I was seven.

19. Have a favorite Stooge? o.O The one that cackles like "Nyahahaha!" ^^;;

20. Believe in Astrology? Not really, but there are coincidences.

21. Believe in magic? I wish. >.<

22. Believe in God? Yes.

23. Pray? Sadly, only when I feel it'll benefit me. *guilty look*

24. Go to church? Not anymore; Dad doesn't take us. >.<

25. Have any secrets? Many.

26. Have any pets? My Westie, Tina.

27. Do well in school? Yes.

28. Go to or plan to go to college? Definitely.

29. Have a degree? No. o.o

30. Talk to strangers who instant message you? Yes. ^^ But only if they interest me. Otherwise I block 'em. >.> Sounds rude, but hey; I don't go for crap, you know.

31. Wear hats? Yes, but I'm embarrassed in them.

32. Have any piercings? Earlobes.

33. Have any tattoos? I wish.

34. Hate yourself? Some things about me.

35. Have a horny spot? -__-##

36. Have a box inside your house that you sleep in because its too damn hot inside that bag of chips? I sleep on a bed. I don't know about you, buddy.

37. Have a best friend? Yes. I think.

38. Wish on stars? Once.

39. Like your handwriting? Changes a lot, but it's not sloppy. ^^;;

40. Have any bad habits? Procrastination and lack of motivation.

41. Care about looks? o.O It sounds superficial, but yes. However, looks don't determine if I like a person or not.

42. Believe in witches? Not really. Some teachers I could name could be witches.

43. Believe in Satan? Yin and Yang. Of course I do.

44. Believe in ghosts? I used to think there was one under my bed. I still believe there's one in my mirror. Childish, but it keeps me feeling young. XD

45. Believe in Santa? XD YES! My daddy is Santa. Bwahahahaha.

46. Believe in the Easter Bunny? No. That's just plain silly. ^.^;;

47. Believe in the Tooth Fairy? ....*guilty silence*

48. Have a second family? ...Yes. XD I do.

49. Trust others easily? Too often.

50. Like sarcasm? When not directed at me.

51. Take walks in the rain? Living in Washington all my life has never changed this; I like the rain but not being in it.

52. Kiss with your eyes closed? Never been kissed. XP

53. Sing in the shower? Heh. When no one's home. ^.^;;

54. Own handcuffs? Bwahahahaha. XD I wish; Jim was gonna get me some....

...Menial, I know, but anything to get my mind off this caffeine headache I'm experiencing. God, what a fuckin' pisser it is, too. @__@ I took some aspirin, but it's not really helping too much.... *sigh* Withdrawal sucks. I'm trying to kick the habit all at once, otherwise I'll be short for the rest of my life.

cs: "Boogie Woogie Bugle Boy" by The D's 3
He's the boogie woogie bugle boy in Company B!

depeche mode i feel loved
+"Darren hayes" +stim*
+"Darren hayes" +stim*
crack "adobe 6.0"
+tommy +shaw +mp3
Hardest part of breaking
download hey kids it's ti
r-kenshin songs download
r-kenshin songs download
"veggietales" and "cheese

Ho hum. The only one that bothers me is the Darren Hayes query. o.O Stim? As in... stimulant? XD

cs: "Wicked Game" by Chris Isaak
What a wicked thing to do / To make me dream of you

Here be replies. :B Today's first blog didn't post. Let's see if this one helps it a little.

Well, Firefly-chan, in some aspects Nataku did get gipped, but hey; it's a cool scarf. ^__^ *is the proud owner of it* And I love Nataku for my own reasons, however odd and slightly... erm they may be. ^.^;;

A new layout? o.o But the one you have right now looks fabulous.

Tee hee. No problemo. ^.^ And I think that whole "sh*t" thing is kinda odd. I mean, they play music on a radio station and block out the profanity, but you still know the artist sings it, so why bother? It's pretty pointless if everyone already knows what it is. x.x Oh well. Maybe some people are just picky like that. ^^;; I'm not, even though I do have a lot of pet peeves. @.@;

*sniffle* ;__; Sad indeed.

Omino has been updated, so sign the Gbook, please? *big sparkly eyes*

My headache has not alleviated. -.- Sprite does nothing for caffeine headaches. Maybe because it has no caffeine. But it's carbonated, dammit!

Hydro: That works on stomachaches; not headaches.
Pam: D'oh.
Hydro: Your fault; you stayed up late last night to finish that vampire book.
Pam: And the ending sucked. >.<
Hydro: Tough titty, said the kitty.
Pam: -.-# Don't patronize me, you imaginary buffoon.
Hydro: XD It's good to be loved.

cs: "Love Can Move You" by Savage Garden
Don't you want to feel amazing? / Baby you know I do

...On Wednesday, at 10:45 AM, I must go and stand in front of the ASB and present our "case" (be that as it may) to the council. Kelly supposedly is coming with me, but someone said that she might not be there Wednesday. I am just about scared shitless of fucking up our chances. Mr. Williams said he chose me because of my "unusually high academic abilities and creativity with words and sentence structure." In other words, I'll BS 'em the whole time. I'm scared.

...And "That One Cute Guy" at school that I used to stalk first semester, he shaved his head. And he had such nice hair. -_-# Things are not looking up for me today.

My God, this site is lame. And what's even lamer is that I clicked it out until the end. I have no life.

I'll reply to blogs later, if I'm not too busy.

cs: "Tragoedia (Piano & Orchestra)" by Spaeth

ph34r u5. XD

Billy Idol is just so damn sexy. <---Gen-chan.
Pierce Brosnan is just so damn sexy. <--- Nataku no Miko
I am just so damn sexy. <--- Phoenix

cs: "Sharp Dressed Man" by ZZ Top

Gen-chan's spending the night. Oh joy! ^__^

Download Spaeth. NOW. You will love him as I do. "Oracle..." is prolly the best I've downloaded out of five, but they're all good.

cs: "Save Me Darling" by Erasure
--I'm all over / Save me darling

This is what I've spent nearly all day working on. Notice how I love to start new projects but never seem to finish them... Oh well; you can expect this one to finish, because as soon as I've signed off, I'm gonna start coding the pages that aren't up yet. ^^;;

And never fear; the Hydro Fanclub will be a feature of this site, too; and if there's a Pyre Fanclub, that one as well.

cs: "New Life (Fresh Mix)" by Depeche Mode
--Complicating / Circulating / New life / New life

"Are we still alive?" Serpentine wondered.
"I don't think Hydro would be in Heaven then," Night Mage rolled his eyes, "and that Heaven happens to look like your base." Serpentine shrugged.
"I never said it was Heaven." Night Mage shrugged.
"That's true."

I was thinking of doing a major rewrite of The Aura (second story). Right now I'm working on the graphics and HTML for the fanfiction portion of CC.Net.

cs: "Mr. Roboto" by Styx
--Thank you very much/ Oh Mr. Roboto/ For doing the jobs/ That nobody wants to

...I'm sorry, Ragabash-san...

Updated.

cs: "Psycho Killer" by the Talking Heads
--You're talking a lot/ But you're not saying anything

Thanks. ^^ It's already finished, but Virtue.Nu seems to be down right now... BTW, my Evil Plan is finished, although I can't say it's really anything to jump around about.... Check back later when Virtue.Nu is working. ^^

Well... it's too late to change it now. And it's.... icky. >.>;; *sighs* I really had higher hopes for Tomoe. And you used the wrong kind of "whore." (Inside joke.)

WTO Riots? Playing them? Games? ....>.< *refuses to open her mouth but can't contain it* ARGH.

That makes me want to spew vituperation about the whole Mardi Gras incident that occured some months ago, in which a young man was brutally killed when trying to help a woman that was being kicked and pummeled as she lay defenselessly on the ground. He was bashed over the head pretty hard and then abused. Seattle is not a playground for which twisted adults can do whatever the fuck they want. It makes me sick. People make me sick. I want to throw up now. >.< And it didn't help that I was feeling fairly nauseous before.

Oy vey. That sounded like I was mad at you, Frank. ^^;; I'm not. I just find it... nearly disgusting that someone would actually make a game about that, when in reality that whole incident with the WTO wasn't anything laughable. Grr. I should know; we covered it extensively as it was happening in US History last year. So sorry if it seemed like I was angry.

Wait a minute, I'm not done spewing forth noxious complaints.

I'm tired of some of my "friends." It's beginning to make my head hurt just thinking about it. I know I'm not gonna win the Best Friend of the Year Award anytime soon, but I do know how to respect a confidence and treat others with equality (if I don't already know their personality and dislike them).

Furthermore, it's just the little things this person does. Like add snide comments when I'm least expecting it and then not knowing what to say. You know, that's the bane of my life. I never know what to say when the moment occurs, but a couple days later I'll have the perfect comeback. One of these days I'll come up with something brilliant to say at the right time.

I feel dirty and guilty whenever I'm around that person. And it doesn't help that this person is always asking me things that she already knows the answer to. I just want to scream and bash my head against the nearest wall.

Maybe I'm not an empathetic friend. Do you know what I mean? Actually, I consider myself the kind of person who can picture herself in someone else's place, but that doesn't necessarily mean I can do it all the time. Maybe empathy isn't what I'm supposed to be focusing on here, though.

I think, if it's anything, the fact that I lack even an atom of patience whatsoever. Sometimes I can be patient and speculative, but most of the time I'm "Full speed ahead and anyone in the way gets run over. Anyone left behind, sucks to be them." This annoys, even aggravates, other people, to the extent where they tell me about it, and then I attempt to change my flaw. Well, I'm sorry, but I can't help but be impatient. All my life I've gone at breakneck speed, and I don't feel like slowing down. "Enjoy your childhood, it's the only one you'll get," people say, and I'll probably regret all my frantic rushing when I'm older, but I understand that, so stop using overused clichés and phrases on me.

Back on subject; at any rate, I feel very... *searches for the right word* exasperated right now. It will forever be the little details that drive me insane. If you think you're so damn stupid, then you are. It seems hypocritical since I say I'm stupid when I make a simple mistake, but I don't really mean it. Every day I wake up and thank God that I'm not an idiot and extremely selfish like some people I could name. And if this person says she feels stupid when she hangs around me, then by all means she can't stop if she likes. I never mean to upstage or outperform someone; I do my best and then sit back. Unless it's someone I've known for a long time and respect, like Gen-chan, I usually don't "compete" for the highest standings, but she and I have been friends since the third-grade, so we have a mutual rivalry and friendship type-deal going on. (Besides, it's more fun than any other rivalry I could think of.)

I guess you could say I've known this friend for a fairly long time (what counts as long, at any rate), but I still don't feel like I could tell this person everything. In fact, I don't ever think I'll find someone that I could tell my deepest darkest secrets. Maybe I don't even want to tell them anything. I think what I want is a relaxed, loose friendship. I don't know. Most of the time my friends and I grate against one another, but it's smooth sailing most of the time.

I used to think that the perfect friend for me would be someone very, very similar to me, but then I realize that 1) I could never get along with someone just as tempermental and spontaneous as me (I salute you all for being able to cope with that), and 2) it would make for either very heated arguments or boring conversations (especially since I never know when the "other me" would feel like talking or staying silent, and vice versa).

It probably leads down to two things; impatience and insecurity. I have plenty of both.

And that concludes that portion of my rant. Onto the next.

I'm beginning to think that math is more my strong point than English. Oh, sure, compliment me for my excellent spelling, vocabulary (which sometimes bothers me since people are too lazy to look up something in a dictionary so they ask me what it means, as if I'm their servant....), and grammar, but when you get right down to it, English is basically literature and poetry and all that happy crap, and I don't feel like I'm very good at any of it. So, I'm beginning to believe that my passion is gently shifting from English to math. You would not believe how happy I feel when I work out an incredibly hard problem and come out right all the way. I feel so elated and important, probably much like the person who first discovered fire. Like I am the best person in the world. That seems conceited, but when you do something you thought you were never good at, and then succeeded, you just want to jump around and shout "HOORAY FOR ME!" And that's how I'm beginning to feel about math. English, I suspect I'll always love, but I believe my interests are shifting to things more math-oriented, like architecture; I love creating new buildings and looking at architecture (not that I'm very good at drawing, and most likely will never be), and I have this urge to create and not destroy (I'll leave that little fetish to SimCity; that's what I have it for).

And how is that a rant? Well, for as long as I can remember, it's been my life's aspiration to become an author. I love creating and shaping sentences, like a potter with his clay, to form clear images in my mind. Of course, most of the time people say I write "in a confusing manner," and use "too many big words," but that has never stopped me. Until now. Now I'm beginning to feel that all I can write is crap and more crap. *sigh*

Okay, I think I'm done. Damn. This blog sounds so narcisstic when I read over it. Well, what should I expect when I've been sitting here for an hour, typing and editing?

cs: "Leave (Extended)" by R.E.M.
--I suffer dreams/ Of a world gone mad/ I like it like that/ And I know it